<p>OK, time to put my 2 cents in (usually what my opinion is worth :) ). </p>
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So I guess my question to grads and officers would be, does the training kill the fear?
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<p>Like PETKO says above, the profession you're about to enter will always be full of fears; fear of failure, fear of death, fear of killing the innocent, fear of being hurt, fear of the unknown, fear of letting you buddies down, and an infinite number more. You ask if training or self-discipline can overcome or drive fear away. One of the reasons your training throughout your career will be so intense and as realistic as possible is to make your reactions second nature. Facing an intense situation or difficulty, your training hopefully should kick in, guiding your reactions without hesitation or conscious thought.</p>
<p>Let me give an example of something that happened to this WSO. In the course of my time in the service, I have flown in some areas where the leaders there were not to happy to see my presence. One time, they decided to protest this fact rather bluntly. Over the radio my front-seater and I heard, in a very heavy British accent, the voice of someone else flying in the same vicinty telling the world in an rather excited voice "Miss-eye-el, MIss-eye-el!!! (my attempt to type out a very heavy British accent). No mention of where they were coming from, where they were right now, or how many. </p>
<p>Years of training for this scenario immediately kicked in. Poison (my front seater, also an AFA grad (91?)) went into "slightly agressive" evasive manuevers, I'm shooting out counter-measures and looking to make sure our wingman is not about to go Boom! Both of our heads on a swivel. We see the missile, and based on things we have and the missiles exhaust, it's obviously not heading for my Number Two. No, it's heading for us! More manuevers, more counter-measures, some radio calls, and a few seconds later we see it overshoot. Back in the game, where's #2? Any more missiles? (two others but not guiding on anyone, they go harmlessly straight up) Which direction should we direct the strike package (I was MIssion Commander after all, and responsible for every coalition jet in a 400 mile radius, I should at least let them know). OK, everything is back to normal-ish, time to press on. Total time from the Brit radio call to this point: about 30 seconds. </p>
<p>Was I scared? I can't remember, I was too busy at the time. Was I scared at 30 seconds + 1 sec, now that I had time to think about what just happened? Well, it was a long night trying to get to sleep, filled with some really bad thoughts. But the point is the training kicked in. </p>
<p>Now, that's what the training is for, making you do the things you need to do at that exact moment, not having to think about it. But what about the guy ready to charge a hill? Or the submariner playing hide and seek with the enemy? Or the tank driver about to "cross the berm" into bad guy controlled territory? Or the paratrooper holding a static line in his hand waiting for the green light? Or the wrestler about to face the State Champion watching the match just prior to his? There will be plenty of situations when you have the time to think about what you're about to do. Does self-discipline get you through it, yes. Does dedication get you through it. Sure. But isn't the courage to face these doubts and bad thoughts just as important. Definetly!</p>
<p>Please excuse my "No s@#*, there I was..." story, if it sounds like I'm bragging or trying to sound cool. Believe me, it wasn't cool at the time, just doing a part of my job (Ds52262 will tell you the same thing, and I honestly don't know if I can run into a burning building like he does, he has my upmost respect). I'm just trying to tell you they are all important, pretty much equally. You can have plenty of self-discipline to train every day, get yourself ready for any situation, but if you don't have the courage to face your fears, whatever they be, does the training really matter?</p>
<p>I'm also glad Pima reminded me that Cliffy is there in eternal rest with his brothers in C. Springs. If DS gets there this summer, I'll have to visit him to pay my respects. I'll be the one standing alone by his tombstone, saluting and crying simultaneously.</p>