Deep Springs 2019 Entry

@nightvale42 Yeah, I think it’s possible. The high correlation between commute time and depression suggests that commuting to work isn’t particularly natural. Nor is having the home become a solitary island that no one else enters natural. Used to be you either lived in the city (so your house was smack up against your neighbor’s) or, perhaps, you lived on a large farm with lots of servants and coming and going. Or, if not that, you lived on a small farm with your extended family, and other farming families not far away. In all three scenarios there was a lot going on at home, and it wasn’t boring or isolated.

I think that was the chief 50’s housewife complaint: home is boring, isolating, and there’s nothing productive to do. I want to go to work.

But I think if homes functioned like they ought to then no one would want to work anywhere else, and work-life balance would be way easier to get right.

@Wildermind I gave myself a heart attack too, haha.

whoever finds out first pls let the rest of us know! I’ve been so anxious all day

@nightvale42 ah, sorry ?- I didn’t mean safety school, I meant something along of a backup or second choice? I’m not too sure what it’s called but it’s a school I would like to get into if Deep Springs isn’t an option. My SAT are/were within the range but now they’ve dropped it I’m not too sure what my chances are like. However, I do have a good feeling for some reason.

Anyway… why are you interested in Deep Springs @nightvale42 or rather why do you favour it over the other engineering schools?

? NEWS ALERT ?

Now… just before you do anything drastic… calm down…

There will be NO phone calls so you can calm down… a little bit anyway, ApCom has just replied and they said, “Application decisions will be released via e-mail within the next day.”

To reiterate: CALM DOWN. You guys have got this :)>-

So that only leaves me with my final fact of the day… (although I’ll probably find a way to continue it): Pirates wores ? rings because they believed it improved there eyesight. Pretty ironic don’t you think?

@celtqueen Not wanting to sound corny or anything but I like the saying “home is where the heart is”. I suppose that’s only because we move around every two years or so so it’s not like I ever have a permanent address. Not that I’m complaining - sure, moving around the world may have robbed me of the chance to really settle my roots but I think constantly changing your home and the idea around it is not only refreshing but also an adventure in itself. In that way, I believe it’s your perception on home that really makes it. You define your situation, not the other way around.

@Wildermind if you like creative writing, have you heard of Wattpad? Also did you happen to do NaNoWriMo?

@dracollavenore 1)thank you so much for asking them I was about to but I was to much of a chicken and 2) I think most engineering schools have a very indoors culture which I dislike and a sever lack of ethics and liberal arts. (Courses, but I do find that a lot of stem fields don’t really care about ethics and that is a growing problem)

A lot has happened since yesterday evening. I wish that I could have participated more but I work full-time and can only reply in the evenings. It is so pleasant to hear from all of you.

I’m also an international applicant. I live in Canada and have done so all of my life, so in some ways I am probably more similar to the domestic applicants than to the internationals. My safety school is the University of Toronto. It’s a great school that some of you may be interested in, and the tuition is lower and in a currency that will offer you a better exchange rate than the American colleges. Specifically, I am interested in the undergraduate program ‘mathematics and philosophy’; it is a specialist program that incorporates both majors. The school also has a first year program, which you can add to your regular curriculum, called the One Program. It is split into many different branches with interesting topics such as international relations, global health, creative writing, and quite a bit more. Admissions are also highly selective, class sizes are small (20 students), and they are seminar based. Anyways, just something you may be interested in.

The jobs at the college that interest me the most are Cook, Mechanic, or Gardener. I am vegan, and have been so for two years, so I don’t want anything to do with the slaughtering or harvesting of animals or their byproducts. I don’t mean to fulfill the trope of the guy who lets everyone know that he is vegan; I just think that it may lead to more discussion. I know that the college seems like the last place a vegan would want to be, but I wanted to go to DS before I made the change in my morals, and I also think that surrounding yourself with others that think differently is an opportunity for growth. I might consider the position of Cowboy as well, but I would have to learn more about what it entails.

To respond in kind to those who answered my initial question:

@dracollavenore

I have read about the current situation with the Telluride Trust. I had not, however, linked its threat to defund the college to the use of gender quotas; that is a good connection. I suppose that only time will tell whether DS will adopt blind admissions in the future. I am skeptical as it appears that DS has been shifting further and further to the left in recent years.

There is some good reading material on the DS website under this link https://www.deepsprings.edu/publications/
The spring 2018 and the fall 2018 alumni newsletters appear to talk more about coeducation than years past.

Why is that your family has moved around so much?

@Wildermind

I do not think that the admission process is as subjective as you do. If that really was the case, then why not just use a lottery system? You are correct that it is not necessary to submit SAT or ACT scores anymore, and there is no minimum GPA. This does not mean, however, that these things are not considered. In a previous thread I posted a link to an Economist article which stated that the average SAT score for students is in the top 2%. I would say that is probably not a coincidence. Even if none of these quantitative measurements are taken into consideration, some essays will be demonstrably better than others, otherwise why ask for them? (Did any of you notice how they added a sentence to the final prompt, asking students not just to reiterate the 3 pillars and 2 ground rules?) And, of course, there will be a hierarchy of which applicants show the greatest interest in the college and stand to give/gain the greatest benefit. All of these factors, and a few more, taken into consideration are what I mean when I say that one applicant may be “less qualified” than another.

You’re right when you point out that people will always be left out, even when it was only male applicants. What I am trying to convey is that I would be understanding if I was rejected because the other applicants were more qualified than me (perhaps competitive is a better word), subjective as that may be, but I would not be okay with being rejected because of my gender and despite being more competitive - in the hypothetical - than some of the applicants of the other gender.

I find your reference to the practical (what would my Mom think?) very amusing and all too true. I feel that a straight up meritocracy is the only way to have a fair system. That being said, you have gotten me to consider the more practical implications of that ideal. If one gender dominates the outcome, perhaps that is the way it is supposed to be? I mean trying to change the outcome seems like social engineering, no?

Thanks to both of you for such great responses. There has been so much else covered that I would love to dig into, but I can’t help but feel that I’m a little too late. In short, to cover some of the topics brought up, I think that the balance between the right and the left is more of litmus test than it is an actual state of existence, and therein lies part of what allows us to find meaning in our lives: correcting the course. I totally agree with Jordan Peterson, and @dracollavenore and @Wildermind, that our biological sex plays a strong role in our nature. I think that the science is pretty clear on that. To @nightvale42 I would say hello! And that no one is saying that we must base our societies on these facts, just that these facts may explain natural inequalities in the number of women/men in any given field. I have never read anything that suggested Jordan Peterson thinks women should only be mothers. I have read, however, that he thinks we should not guilt women for wanting to “just” be a stay at home mother. I love debate too but have never had the pleasure to actually debate someone. Hey @celtqueen ! I agree and I think that it is strange how we no longer consider house work to be real work. The raising of children and the bolstering of communities is so important. Can you imagine how nice it must be for the professors at DS? To have all these people for their children to socialize with.

Anyways, sorry for such a long post. I hope that none of my comments came across as rough or cynical. I’m really just happy to be having this shared experience with you all. I can’t believe that we will be discovering our fates in the next 24 hours.

@nightvale42 What types of engineering are you interested in then? From the sound of it, it seems like environmental engineering is what attracts you.

@CoffeeCreek Don’t worry, nothing sounds rough or cynical but you’re right about the long post :stuck_out_tongue: Nonetheless, it was an interesting read and it was nice of you to actually go through everything said and answer everyone in turn… if it were me I would have just scanned for the main idea and plopped myself right in the middle of the current conversation, so the fact that you actually spent the time to read everything carefully beforehand actually means quite a lot.

I have applied to Canada (Quest University) https://questu.ca which is another school I’m looking at. The reason I applied is because it’s unique in a way of alternative education. Like Deep Springs, there is a close knit culture with an emphasis of student participation, plus it’s got the mysticim of being built on ancient burial grounds ?. Other than Quest and Uchicago, I’m applying to Tsinghua in China but my heart is still set on Deep Springs. I haven’t applied to anymore than that because, unlike my classmates, I’m only applying to schools that actually attract me instead of just academic ranking. A few of my classmates now regret their early decision options because they’re now stuck in a binding contract for a degree that they don’t even want. As for me, even if I don’t get into Deep Springs (crossing my fingers that I do even though it does make it harder to type…) I’m satisfied with my other options.

@CoffeeCreek where else have you applied? I move around a lot because my dads a primary school teacher and he doesn’t like staying in one school for too long. Before China I used to live in the UK but then my mom got deported (Chinese) because of Brexit - Hey, it’s not all doom and gloom though! The silver lining was I learned how to create a rather successful government petition so staging social change is something else I can cross off of my bucket list. :)>-

@dracollavenore I noticed you were talking about not having a really permanent home a bit back. There’s so much being said that it gets confusing and I miss things! Anyway, I’m sorry your mother was deported. That sounds really hard.

But what you said stuck with me, because I’ve moved around a lot too. I must have lived in at least a dozen houses so far in my life, and lots of different towns. Reaching the end of adolescence and realizing you have no place to call home, other than wherever your family happens to life, is a weird feeling, so I certainly relate. Have you found that by moving between countries so much you exist in a sort of cultural void? Like you’re not fully part of any culture? I’m interested because I sometimes get that feeling about myself.

@CoffeeCreek I absolutely agree! Raising new human beings is arguably the most important job there is. And yeah, I think having your kids grow up on a farm, with all the intellectual conversations being slung around and all kinds of stuff to explore, would be really amazing to watch. The professors are very lucky, and so are the children.

@CoffeeCreek my post got taken down 8-| Free speech is dead yoh.

@Wildermind perhaps it’s a certain word you said? Maybe your posts were taken down for a set phrase?

@celtqueen don’t be sorry about things that happen in the past, unless you’re actually to blame. I know it’s just respect but things like deportation, death and the like are things that just happen. There’s no need to be sorry. :smiley:

As for moving, I feel you and I totally get the cultural void. It’s almost as if you feel like you never really belong anywhere (especially if you’re mixed race) but at the same time you get to embrace your uniqueness. However, moving isn’t actually the hard part for me - it’s moving on. I suppose children don’t have the best memories but as I’ve grown up, best friends have become total strangers and the meaning of ‘I won’t forget’ becomes hollow.

I remember a year or two ago I was visiting Dubai again and I decided to contact one of my ‘best friends’. Thankfully he remembered me and we decided to meet up. Take note this plan was done at least two months in advance. Flashforward to the day we were supposed to meet up and he couldn’t make it because he ‘forgot’ to do his homework. Now I know some homework tasks are very large but couldn’t he have planned his time a little bit better or perhaps woken up a bit earlier to do it? To me it seemed like the meet up plan was just a nice idea on his part and nothing more. For those two months I looked forward to the day I could see my best friend again but instead I was left feeling hollow. Since then, the term “best friend” doesn’t really mean anything to me. It seems that as soon as I move, all memories of me are lost as well. I still make friends but try to keep a small distance because it feels that if I make too much of a strong connection when I move again I’ll leave a little bit of my soul behind and I don’t know how many times I can keep doing that. It’s like a disconnection of sorts - I can’t ever truly settle my roots and it seems that I just drift from one place to another…

HOWEVER! And this is a BIG, like a Huge HOWEVER! I like to take this as a learning experience. Life is full of ups and downs and unfortunately my childhood has been a giant pit. But I’m grateful. When I look around at a lot of people my age I see how selfish and sheltered they’ve been. They’ve grown up stagnant, everything there in their own communities - it reminds me a lot of Kafka’s Castle. It makes it difficult to connect with those around me (except for you guys. Honestly, you’re all a godsend and I swear I haven’t made so many connections with people in a long time) and I find it tiring to be agreeable all the time to keep the peace. Because of the different cultures I’ve experienced and the different viewpoints, I feel alien to a lot of situations yet also omnipresent. I feel that I can empathise with almost anyone yet also feel entirely foreign at the same time. For example, if someone has fallen down I understand that a lot of people will ask if they’re alright. Not me though. It might seem counterproductive but I’ll ignore the incident because I understand that, unless the fall has a very large impact, the embarrassment usually outweighs the pain. With that I can empathise. In contrast, I can’t empathise with those who have lost their third pair of Nike shoes. If they were important you would have looked after them and do you seriously need a third pair?

At the end of the day, I know I don’t totally fit in and whilst that sucks at times when you aren’t treated like everyone else, it provides you with so many different perspectives. A quote I like is “ignorance is bliss”. Sometimes I wish I was just your average Joe with friends my the boatload and a place I can always return to, however, I would never trade my experiences for an easy life. I love all experiences, the good and the bad and if that means sacrificing one thing for another then I’m fine with that.

Sorry to be all preachy but it felt good to get that off my chest. So yes, @celtqueen I totally understand and I’m here to say ai’ll stand by you as we stare into the cultural void together.

@dracollavenore I sound just like your best friend. Like you I moved around a lot and I think it was made me emotionally vacant to friends and family. I literally just give up, there is not a friend I have had which lasted more than two years. X_X

@Wildermind @celtqueen :)) How ironic. We’re a bunch of friends with a common bond of not having deep friendships. Well - we all know who to turn to at Deep Springs then.

So, anyways… I vote we have a change of topic @Wildermind . Second round results will be in within a few hours and I don’t know if I’ll be able to sleep tonight so why not have another lengthy discussion. I propose the topic of morality. Eg. Do you think it’s right to do something unlawful if the intention is for the greater good. In that respect, what is the greater good to you personally.

@dracollavenore i think yeah. Not to play 123 hitler, but imagine it’s the holocaoust. If you can help a family/person escape it is morally correct to do so, even though it is unlawful. The same thing is true with people escaping repressive governments today.
My personally morals are do what helps the most people and saves the most lives. In a similar vein, if I could steal something to stop climate change I would, even though in a normal situation I would consider stealing to be immoral.

@dracollavenore What is it that you mean by unlawful? Ate you are talking about the legal system? If so which country? Some countries that allow one things which is banned in another.

In terms of the greater good, what I have learnt from taking film, anime, animation and reading literature with deep themes is that there is no such thing as right or wrong, it all depends on the person’s point of view.

Based upon a story that I am writing my main characters are essentially lab rats. Before the futuristic technology can be released to the public it goes through them first. It no different from what cooperation do to animals, only here the people volunteer willingly. Taking inspiration for A Brave New World my characters are programmed to want to be experimented because, there is nothing greater than serving others. There is a show called Orphan Black were the test subjects are oblivious to their nature which causes them to rebel because, free will, which topples the cooperation.

People try to convince the subjects that what they are doing is wrong, they deserve better blah blah blah. The subjects counter by pointing out the technology allows the to move forward as a civilization.

What I write is a response other people’s work. When I finished Orphan Black for the first time I did not side with the victims. I understood their need for individuality but they were clones and important experiments were being done of them. They were being used to cure diseases, genetic defects.

@Wildermind i disagree. I think some actions are wrong. Saying it’s all about a point of view justifies killing someone bc they stopped you from achieving their goal and your goal is the most important. Also that isn’t an example I’m pulling out of my ass, there is a psychological condition in which ppl will kill someone just bc the person inconvinded them in the most minor way. I can’t rember it’s name rn but it is a trying. Also, from that perspective lynchings are okay as the lynchers has a view of black ppl as inhuman and thought that some minor thing (wisteking at a white woman, looking at someone, not calling a white man sir) was enough to justify murder