<p>so for about a month or two, I've been feeling really depressed and worthless. </p>
<p>1) I'm freaking out about college and worrying a lot about acceptances in April
2) I quit two ECs for this year, one of which was a winter sport, so I have nothing to do during the week basically. I have other ECs but they don't take up a lot of time.
3) I applied for jobs, but I haven't gotten any calls back (and when I called, they told me that they weren't hiring despite their many HIRING signs)
4) School isn't too bad, except for AP physics which I really am having trouble in. I just don't want to go anymore.
5) I don't even have my license so I can't go places and I don't want to because I have no money. No job + college application fees + other things = BROKE
6) I'm quickly finding out that I despise winter--it gets dark way too early</p>
<p>It's terribly ironic, but now that I have more time to do things, I get less done.</p>
<p>I'm trying to find some meaning in my life again. I don't know what I should do. I want to do something productive and worthwhile besides surfing the internet or watching tv. </p>
<p>any advice?</p>