<p>^ Woah. That’s exactly how I feel. Especially the part about how I can never be the best at anything - that irritates the hell out of me. Sometimes it’s like if being “smart” is what I’m good at, then why can’t I at least be the smartest? Because I know a couple kids at my school that are definitely smarter than me and it sometimes makes me doubt the validity of my own existence.</p>
<p>Have you managed to shake it off somehow?</p>
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Wow, [you</a> really should take care of that.](<a href=“http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seppuku]you”>Seppuku - Wikipedia)</p>
<p>^ That post made my day</p>
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Um, I don’t think about it when I’m doing something important I guess…
I guess my rank means I am one of the smartest in my batch. What I meant was that my math is nowhere near those IMO people, and it probably could be if I worked enough. But I never try, it’s too much work to keep the math up to that level all the time. The problems are just too tough and there’s always someone who does them faster/more easily. For me, when I did IMO math, it was almost painful. :rolleyes:</p>
<p>I think the last time I ever felt an absolutely intense sense of inadequacy was at the national finals of my sport. When I faced my opponent, it was absolutely awful, and my under confidence was the main reason I totally screwed up. It was such a total fiasco.
I think that incident kinda acted as a reminder to me about what happens when you let emotions affect you too much, which is why I’m pretty much dispassionate about everything now. But that’s what prevents me from living up to my full potential I guess?</p>
<p>Oh another thing that might help, I feel that it’s all in the mind. If you really want to do something, just believe in yourself with all your power. I find that I always get what I want when I do this, no matter how much slaving away I have to do.</p>
<p>Well, I’m done with this thread. Getting too serious. I came to this forum for a laugh.</p>
<p>^Hopefully it is all in my mind, but whenever I start to think like that I have to stop myself because I don’t want to risk overestimating myself and ending up hurt because of it.</p>
<p>Maybe I should overestimate myself though. I can’t get better until I push myself. Thanks for the advice :)</p>
<p>No problem.:)</p>
<p>I fiercely believe it’s all in the mind. I have this weird theory that everyone has the same brains, and it’s up to you how much you want to utilize the space, and on how much you can tune your mind to your line of thought. This might be total BS though, as some tell me. I do come up with absolutely outrageous theories a lot of times. But, I dunno. It works. I’ve found that if you want to increase your capacity and actually try, it does happen, there’s no limit.</p>
<p>Apparently I hold myself and others to a too high of a standard… 
Apparently too high even for me to reach. Well I say it is a load of bull. All limits are self imposed.</p>
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So totally agree! But I think it’s not a bad thing, except it does result in…consequences. 
Absolutely. Dude, you’re awesome.</p>
<p>@fisawalab Story of my life. I have perfect grades, take all Honors/APs, have some committed ECs, but I don’t seem to have that “potential” that other people have. Or maybe it’s initiative?</p>
<p>To answer the question, YES. Every time I waste an afternoon browsing the internet instead of studying for AP Physics I whack myself on the head (not physically of course, since that would reduce the already-diminishing number of brain cells I have).</p>
<p>I think half of the problem is finding what you’re good at. Again, as someone else said, it’s frustrating to not be the best at anything. It’s like, it’s fine if I’m not the star athlete or musician but please let me be a biology buff!</p>
<p>I don’t know if it’s just me, but I’ve already gone through two mini-depressions that I like to call “failure phases.” Basically every day after school for a week I sit around moping about all the things I shoulda coulda woulda done, and then the next week I get it together. Thankfully that hasn’t happened recently, since APs are coming up…</p>
<p>Absolutely. I regret it especially now at the end of senior year. But, I figure there’s no use in moping about it. I’m happy about the person I’ve become, and that’s really all that matters. And I’ve vowed to work to my full potential in college. :)</p>
<p>Um lets see “Does anyone think if you tried harder you would do better”</p>
<p>Answer: “Yes”</p>
<p>You should try harder at thinking.Fscking ■■■■■</p>
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Why is there an s in your ■■■■?</p>
<p>All the time XD lol but it’s senior year so i don’t have as much motivation anymore. But i’m still passing all my classes with As and Bs. 
ohohoho. </p>
<p>Took my AP exams today (Chem and Psych), didn’t study (maybe like 20 minutes yesterday), but i feel like i did very well XD But i probably would do better if i actually studied. </p>
<p>I will have to actually try in college though XD I need to live up to my potential there~</p>
<p>Cuz i like to s d when i f u , u dig?</p>