<p>After many years of procrastination I have recently begun to notice that I am getting myself on the study train... but I feel so empty. My grades are still extremly average and I see all my friends taking harder classes than me and doing better in them with out trying. I have limited all the guilty pleasures I loved before and am starting to feel empty. Just wondering if anyone else feels this way/has any advice...</p>
<p>Hmm… I feel empty when I’m OFF track. Like, over the summer, I was a time-wasting couch potato who did very little. </p>
<p>Yeah, even now when I’m picking up the pace and studying and doing important stuff, I still feel a general malaise. Sometimes I feel like I need a week off of life to figure everything out. </p>
<p>As for your friends being higher achievers than you, don’t feel belittled at all. There are always people who will be better than you. What you need to do is find whatever you enjoy about high school and pursue it with a passion that will keep you going. Whether you are into academics or music or a sport, just keep pushing yourself. </p>
<p>And reward yourself sometimes for good work. Somedays, all that keeps me going is knowing that I will crash hard this weekend, kick back, and forget about all the discipline in my daily life. (I call it " YOLOing").</p>
<p>I know this. Before my senior year in High School my plans were to work really hard and get very good grades but then when the year started I also felt “empty”, which was really deppresing. But then I thought, hey, just go on. You have just one chance, so take it. It won’t help you to hang your head and why should you do it anyways? You are healthy you are relatively affluent and you have friends. Everything is gonna be fine, even if you won’t receive the best grades. Because I realized that my emptiness was caused by fear of failure. But didn’t every human failed in something, even the greatest ones?</p>
<p>best wishes</p>
<p>Philipp</p>
<p>I love you Philipp, thanks.</p>
<p>You are not in competition with your friends, you are in competition with yourself, with who you were before. If you are doing better today than you were yesterday, you’re already winning. 
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<p>As for the emptiness, I felt something of that nature when I was a Sophomore. I was kind of in this haze… I can assure you that the emptiness fades with time. Just stay on track and you’ll find sooner or later that the rewards you’ll reap will be well worth the work.</p>
<p>I love you too honestlyfreaked. :D</p>