<p>I don't go on here often, but after reading a few threads I figured I'd give this board a try. </p>
<p>For as long as I can remember, I've wanted to be in the military. I don't know what first triggered, or why, but it has always been a part of my "agenda for life", I guess you could say. Recently, I did a senior project on nurse anesthesia, and I felt that I could see myself becoming a nurse anesthetist. So, while on college visits, I picked up a Nurse Corps pamphlet at the ROTC center at Penn State; and I instantly became attracted to the program because of the benefits it offered. So, for the longest time, I've been extremely careful to stay away from trouble, in order to get the scholarship. However, going to bed early and waking up very early for training has sort of separated me from my friends. </p>
<p>Tonight, I was at a party, and I left early for the sake of going to bed. As I was saying my good-byes, and everyone was pressuring me to stay later, it clicked. At that point, I was thinking to myself, "Look at me. I'm sacrificing the best days of my life, as well as limiting my college choices, just to get some benefits, and experience a military career. Is it really worth it?" I just realized that tonight is my first time thinking of not doing ROTC or the military. I haven't been able to sleep since just thinking that the alternatives aren't so bad.</p>
<p>I guess you could say that my question is whether you think if I'm questioning myself now, do you think I should really follow through with the program? The last thing I would want to do is get myself involved into something I might not have the heart for anymore, and steal a scholarship from someone who needs it. </p>
<p>Although the scholarship would help tremendously, as well as the work experience from serving, my family wouldn't have trouble paying for my education, and I could get more than enough work experience from a city hospital after I graduate. </p>
<p>Also, if there is anyone who has actually gone through with the ROTC program [specifically Nurse Corps, if possible], do you feel like you spent time in the program that you would have rather spent elsewhere?</p>