So I’ve never posted here before, but I just need answers and came across the site, so I thought I’d give it a try.
I’m 2-1/2 years into college, but about a year ago I was dismissed from college due to personal issues, appealed, reinstated, and then took a leave of absence for almost a year. During that leave I went for therapy, took classes part time, and held a job for a couple of months as well. I’m now back for my first term at this school, and I’m going to fail and be academically dismissed for sure.
I just can’t find any motivation in any of my classes. I always end up messing up the same way: by not going to my classes. This snowballs into a depression-like state (don’t feel like it’s actual depression), where I end up barely ever leaving my room, and eventually failing.
It’s not all classes that I have this problem with though. Classes related to my major, computer science, I have no problems in and always get B+ or higher. Even freshman year while taking 2 cs classes, 1 calculus, and 1 physics, I would barely pass calc and physics, but always get A’s in the cs classes. It’s definitely what I enjoy doing and what I want to do for a living, the problem is getting there.
But anyway, I’m now facing the fact that I’m going to be forced to leave this school in a couple of weeks, and I’m just not sure what to do or where to go. Should I take even more time off to try and get a job? Should I apply for community college and see if I can do better there? I’m leaving this school with a decent amount of computer science/programming experience(3 month internship, 6 month internship, and 6 months being the sole developer on a website that just recently went live a couple of weeks ago) under my belt already, so finding another internship or something could be a possibility too maybe? I don’t know. I’m just really not sure what to do.