@rhandco Thank you for your support. Unfortunately you need to realise that I am struggling in hrs English, not AP. Consider this: I got proficient on my state literature standardised test, out of up to advanced.
I also missed the NMSF cutoff this year by 1-3 points. From my school every Ivy admit was a NMSF, and I am not, due to my bad English score. I am going to be a Commended Scholar (It may be good for state school), which will look bad for ivy league when you are competing with thousands of finalists. In fact about 12 a year of of about 800 in my school get NMSF.
Finally my Math and Science classes are completely different from my English classes. In Physics as 11th grader, I have higher grades than seniors accepted to CMU and UPENN (who were both NMSF). However in my English class the instructor says to some students “Do you want to go to college?” I spend about 75% of my school work time in that class, and the other 25% on other classes which includes 4 AP courses.
In my school if you are good at Math you are good at everything. I am the lone exception to that rule. I can easily get into a state school (Penn State, GA Tech, maybe UC if I am luckey), and do fine in English/Exceptionally well for them in Math. Or, I can try Ivy League where (If I somehow get in) I will do fine in Math but will get dessimated in English. That’s the problem. My Math abilities far transcend my English capabilities, and the difference between the two is staggering.
It seems that no one is like me, and I mean this in both a good and bad way, depending on what point of view is taken.
BTW I am a good college essay writer. I applied to several scholarship residential summer programmes and my English teacher said they were “wonderful”. However, you need to keep in mind that that is an Hrs English teacher, not an AP teacher.