<p>Well for now, Im gonna stick to an existentialist-esque view...</p>
<p>Its just that I had the wrong mentality the past four years, and I can't take them back. I regret such a great portion of my life, and it depresses me</p>
<p>The worst part for me is? What next? I have to applied to many top caliber schools, most of my schools are up there with Stanford. Now I have to wait to april to find out if I am even going to a college I will be content with. It just seems really unlikely now...</p>
<p>Dude, I had a friend who applied to HYPS and every other top-caliber school. She could have thrown darts and gotten in as consistently as she did. It was all over the map. Reject from Stanford SCEA, Waitlist at H, Accept to Penn and Pton, Reject from Yale, and some others. So chances are you'll do quite well yourself. Have faith, Wolffy.</p>
<p>I mean, I'm not trying to undermine your feelings, but I was pretty much robbed of a childhood too. I was the creepy kid in the back of the classroom that no one talked to because I was always studying. I completely isolated myself from my peers who, in turn, alienated me for the remainder of my childhood/adolescence. </p>
<p>But I'm not bitter. <em>cough</em></p>
<p>But I'm kind of thankful for that because if I did "fit in", would have I have any semblence of the cynical wit [or lack thereof] that I have today? Would I have even thought to pick up those crazily misanthropic Russian novels or learned to laugh at Nietzsche? Would I even have a mind of my own!? Dun dun duuuun...</p>
<p>But, seriously, do you like yourself? Is getting deferred from a school really going to change the way you feel about yourself? Come on, you're obviously highly accomplished. So, buck up, kiddo. You're a-okay in my book, and that's all that really matters. </p>
<p>Please tell me that I at least made you chuckle?</p>
<p>megalomaniac0502 thanks for that. (your second last post). It makes me feel better hearing that people got into Ivies even though they got rejected from Stanford. It gives me hope like nothing else could.</p>
<p>Quite welcome. Naturally, I'm saying it to myself too. Haha, here's some more consolation. Pton wanted her so bad they flew her out there from Memphis to show her the campus after she got in. Like, a personal visit, not a preview weekend or anything.</p>
<p>No, I have not had the pleasure of reading Menckeniana!! Although I have a lot of respect for H. L. Mencken. The guy wasn't afraid to say what he thought, and I'm a big fan of that!</p>
<p>Haha, he was great. If you like him, you have to watch House, M.D. on Fox. House fits my mental image of Mencken. Who's your favorite Russian, btw? Mine's Nabokov, who doesn't really count so much.</p>
<p>I watch House from time to time. I really like the actor who plays the main character, but I wish he would use his British accent from time to time. I don't know why. There's something about British accents...</p>
<p>Uuum...Dostoevsky was my favourite until I finished reading Crime & Punishment. I HATED the ending. I thought it was so anti-climactic and wishy-washy. I read it after I finished War and Peace, so I expected Raskolnikov to get shot in the face after getting released from prison or something, but, alas, it didn't happen. </p>
<p>The ending of the Trial, though, has stayed in my mind since I've read it. The way that Joseph K died..."like a dog" completely reminded me of how people today are stuck in this constant rat race like Joseph K and similarly die "like dogs". That book made me realize that dying like that is my biggest fear, so, I'd have to say that Kafta has been the writer that has had the biggest effect on me. Sheesh, I'm getting shivers all over again!</p>
<p>I second you on not wanting to die like that. Crime and Punishment, again, I agree completely. Weak ending. And yeah, I like how Chase has a fake Brit accent and House a fake American one. Lol, I love British accents. Mine is British/Indian/speech impediment. It's...very hard to comprehend. You know, I would say more, except I'm very much in agreeement with you on these points.</p>
<p>I heart Raskolnikov too!! I think he's one of my favourite literary characters! I think that's one of the reasons that made me dislike the ending. </p>
<p>My voice is just really monotone. In my freshman PE class, no one could care to learn my name, so they all just called me Daria. sigh...but since it's cancellation, I'm just "cold-hearted".</p>
<p>you guys are amazing and brilliant, don't forget that.</p>
<p>i'll admit it. i cried when i saw that i was rejected...
i honestly didn't expect it- not because i think i'm
absolutely fantastic or anything, but because so
many of my friends and family told me i'd have no
problem. but now- i'm actually kind of grateful.
stanford isn't the school for me and i'm okay
with that. its better for me to find that out now,
then to start the year and absolutely hate it.
USC 2010, anyone?? : )</p>
<p>I don't know about you guys, but I heart Tolstoy. I mean, he basically wrote longer books than anyone else for the sake of writing them...haha. And putting War and Peace aside, only a pimp could write 700 pages on adultery- and damn good, titillating stuff too. I think we're all in agreement that Russian authors generally rock, if only because they're so damn surly and depressed. Cold a ss weather and vodka do a lot for good literature.
Oh, and I laugh at Nietzsche too. Jonathan glover bi tch-slaps him. If you haven't read his indict, read it, for realz.
As someone who just got accepted, I can tell you this: there is no real gap between us, guys. My friend is a real poet- an artist, if you will, and she told me this other day, after she had gotten rejected (we have comparable stats and passions- and after I found out I was accepted, I expected she would too).
I forget exactly what she said, but it was basically along the lines of:
In a world lacking any innate meaning, we trudge through the blackness of unlimited human possibilty, forging our own paths. Human effort becomes our only compass through the blackness of chaos. And so when we reach the unchangeable will of the ages, the winds of eventuality, swirling us into a hurricane of forces entirely beyond our control, it's reasonable for us to be shocked. But that is not a reason to be defeated. Things will happen in my life that I can never control, and so my goal must be to prove my character despite the whims of the unchangeable, to take a stand for my integrity and the fact that things beyond what I can control can NEVER take any of WHO I AM away.
And that really stuck with me, I guess she had really been thinking things out. And she's somewhat OK with it now, but at the time she was basically crying over it.
So my point is- at the end of the day, there's no real gap between the people who got deferred, accepted,etc. even rejected this round. Don't give up from here. The only way you will really be defeated is if you let this get to you. And I would be more than happy to be any of you guy's classmate next year, you're all qualified in my book.
Hope this is encouragement for those who did not get in but who just as easily could have (and that's most on this board).</p>