<p>Wayoutwestmom, I finished my freshmen year and have done so poorly, I got kicked out of the university. Now I am sure there is a psychological reason underlying my procrastination. I remember when I was younger, I would have a “all or nothing” mentality in swimming. I didn’t try at all, because I didn’t want to tell myself that even though I tried my best, I still Couldnt win. Maybe this attitude carried onto academia. </p>
<p>At the beginning of my second quarter of freshmen year, I found out that I was one point away from passing my chem placement test. I was so disappointed, I went on the computer that whole weekend, an activity I told myself I wouldn’t let myself engage in to eliminate procrastination. After that weekend, I got sooooooo addicted to the Internet. I ended up failing two classes. For third quarter, I enrolled in 19 units to keep financial aid, and left my laptop at home, but I couldn’t handle the workload and failed two more classes.</p>
<p>The worst part is that I still can’t figure out why I couldn’t pass. At one point in my second quarter, I decided to fail the class when there was no chance of acing it, since I heard that the university replaces your failed grade with your new grade. I guess perfectionism is part of the problem. I’ve always had a very low self esteem. I guess there are many things I need to figure out about myself and my attitude.</p>