<p>im not ecited anymore. now i'm just plain freaked out</p>
<p>I'm terrified. And each goodbye I say here makes it worse and worse. I'm so excited, yes, but I'm just so SCARED, plain and simple. Monday night, when I say goodbye to all of my friends, is going to be awful.</p>
<p>Yeah, I totally know what you guys mean. I'm trying to stay positive, but all I keep thinking is 'Will everyone forget me the instant I leave?!?!' Which is very nerve wracking...</p>
<p>don't worry, they won't! I needed to go to my old school today and I was treated like a celeb haha (They've already started). I got so many hugs and "we missed you!"s from people who I wouldn't think would notice I was gone haha. And I'm FAR from popular or well-known so it was weird. I'm sure it'll be the same from you!</p>
<p>i could hug you, risingjunior. you said exactly what i wanted to hear. i can finally sleep at night. =)</p>
<p>Whenever I start thinking about "Holy crap, another year of this place. Holy crap, I have to do interviews and applications and essays and teacher recs and ohmygawd. Holy crap, I might not get in at all and then it'd be four more years of this place. Holy crap. Holy crap," I just start thinking about how amazing it would be to leave, and all sorts of positive things, and it makes me feel much better and more confident.</p>
<p>i just think about homework. like, what homework do i have to finish today, what projects are due tomorrow, what essays are due tomorrow, what tests are tomorrow, what quizzes are tomorrow, what oral presentations are tomorrow, what stupid activity do i have tomorrow, etc. it rolls on to a very long, continuous list.
i swear, they give out more work than boarding school would ever dare to assign</p>
<p>definitely an incentive to leave. =)</p>