I am a senior in computer science and I realized that I despise it now

I am 21M, I started as computer science at first because my parents and older brother forced me to it because i will make a lot of money and find a job anywhere, and my brother is a programmer, but in my first year i took basic java hated it and failed it, then i took it another but i dropped it,then i stayed away from programming , and I am did well in sociology political science and cultural studies. I lied to my family about my grades and that i am continuing my major courses and i am near graduating my brother wanted me to learn php and i greatly despised it and had to lie to my parents that i am fixing his site. I have been put on probation list, and they pay for my tuition fees. I have not did anything for my brothers website because i hate php coding i’d rather die than develop software. My fear is if they found out they would disown me, i will be homeless, no job, no money. Where I live it is nearly impossible to find a job, everything is expensive,and even if u got hired your income is not enough. I have zero motivation for programming. And if i tell them about other majors they would ridicule me. If i got disowned I would literally commit suicide.

Would you be interested in a Business Analyst position? Your IT knowledge would qualify you but it’s not really a coding/programming job – it’s more about database management, updating, and utilization. You add or pull the information that people request and maintain the database.

Get a degree in something !!! Is there something palatable you can major in that will take you the least amount of time to finish?? Often times jobs simply require a bachelors degree, regardless of the degree.

I agree that you should try to find a major that you can deal with and graduate with. A college degree is very important…but you may be able to use your technical skills as well. Maybe you want to become a project manager…knowing how software is developed is useful.

Talk to your advisor about options.

How close are you to a degree? Are you graduating this month? The title of your post says you’re a senior but you don’t seem to have completed any CS coursework so a non-programming tech related job doesn’t really seem like an option. Like others, I think you need to figure out the fastest path to a degree and get it. If your school has a career counseling center, then you need to visit asap.

As for dealing with your family: well you’ve promised work to your brother that you will not be able to deliver. You need to start by coming clean to him. As he’s a programmer, he will fully understand that it is not a field that is right for most people. He could be an ally to help you face your parents (and maybe find a job) but that’s not going to happen until you make things right with him.

Your brother and parents thought it would be a good idea for you to do computer programming, and you tried to accommodate them, but it turned out not to be a good idea. It’s good that you’ve found other fields you like. I don’t think your parents will disown you when they find out how their idea went awry, however angry/disappointed they are. Don’t let their feelings get to you. They are partly to blame for not having realized the experimental nature of what they were exhorting you to do.

Do whatever you can to get off probation and graduate in something.

After you graduate, you should expect to be self-supporting. You will be able to get some job. Move to wherever the jobs are. If you are single, there is no pay so low (I’m assuming you’re in the US) that you cannot live on it (if you get practiced in frugality).

Sounds like you need to grow up and make your own decisions. You’re 21. Do what you want. If you don’t like programming, you should probably look elsewhere.