I failed my first year, do I still have a chance?

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<p>Hi, my name is George, I'm a Civil Engineering student at University of Toronto</p>

<p>I suffer from depression, I feel like a loser, but I'm trying my best to turn the situation around.</p>

<p>I failed the 2nd semester of my first year of Civil Engineering due to chronic major depression and of course, my stupidity lol. I had to withdraw for 8 month and repeat the second semester of my 1st year. During the time off I read, contemplated, and worked at American Eagles. I am currently in my 2nd year of study(3rd year chronologically) My GPA is around 1.8-2.0 right now. I contemplated and conteplated why I sucked so much because I am not stupid and my high school record does not indicate I'm unsuitable for college. In fact I pulled off B + grades while doing xc/track year round, science team, painting, chinese school teacher's assistant, writing for the city newspaper, and volunteering. Not that it matters anyways.</p>

<p>My conclusion was that I underestimated the difficulty of University of Toronto 1st year(stupid me), I got very bad depression, and maybe I'm not as gifted at academics as I thought. Now, what's past me is past me and there is nothing I can do about it, so I choose to move on and work my butt off. I am still suffering from depression but I know I need to work myself out of this rut. I'm trying my best to get myself back on track and find some happiness to life.</p>

<p>I'll be honest, I probably should I gone straight into architecture after high school. Now that I know myself better I think my amplitude is more suited for that.
Now please be honest with me. My dream is either to be an architect or open an architecture/engineering firm focused on sustainability. If I want to do a masters in architecture do I still have a shot with my awful grades? </p>

<p>If I can't get into a good school after undergrad. What steps should I take to make myself more competitive when I reapply as a mature student to architecture school?
-e.g. what kind of job should I take? Take night courses while I work? Do a career exploratory program at Harvard? </p>

<p>Here are some of my works if you are interested. I found this community a few month ago and I think it's great. I'm hoping to find some external support that can motivate me. </p>

<p>My Public Shoebox pictures from friends & fun photos on webshots</p>

<p>Any comments is appreciated.</p>

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<p>From what I’ve heard, the arch schools care more about your creativity and portfolio than your grades. However, I wouldn’t expect getting into grad school anywhere if you have a gpa less than 3.0 </p>

<p>Your dream isn’t ruined, but you have to be honest with yourself. The reason you made poor grades is due to your lack of effort. Whether this lack of effort was caused by your depression or not, only you know, but engineering really isn’t that hard so long as you put in the effort. If you really think you can go back to school and turn your study habits around, then go for it, but if you’re still depressed and have other issues going on, then you might be better off looking for work in the real world until you get your life straightened out.</p>