<p>I hate my high school life.
I hate the fact that I automatically check someone's classes when they talk to me.
I hate the fact that I'm so paranoid about every quiz/homework being handed in.
I hate the fact that I get stomachaches every time I go into class, thinking that I'll get an assignment that will lower my grade that session.
I hate the fact that so many people study much lesser then me and get much better grades.
I hate the fact that I am an Asian, specifically from a country where every student is expected to excel in class.
I hate the fact that all my honest, loyal friends in Middle School have now all transformed into friends that refuse to give help for certain assignments, thinking that I might get a better grade than them.
I hate the fact that I pay for my education, but the school has a curriculum that makes students study by themselves for mostly anything.
I hate the fact that educational Youtube videos help more then the lectures by my teachers.
I hate the fact that the teachers ignore our plausible requests just for their own good.
I hate the fact that we are all studying to reach the standards that we have set for ourselves.
I hate the fact that most people are studying for the sole reason to impress others, not because they are passionate about what they will do in their future.
I hate that people join clubs not because they are passionate about it, but to get into a good college.
I hate the fact that all my friends have abandoned me for higher GPAs.
I hate the fact that we are all struggling so hard to get into a good university.
I hate the fact that social relationships are less regarded then grades.
I hate the fact that people betray people, even though at the end we will all die with nothing, and the only thing left will be the relationships you had with other organisms.
I hate the fact that my school administrators are so dumb.
I hate the fact that I might not graduate High School.
I hate the fact that contemplate about suicide every day.</p>
<p>I hate the fact that I've become so weak and have become so paranoid on getting into a good university. I hate the fact that I've lost happiness, and have no life. I hate the fact that I think of ending my life daily, even when there are much more unfortunate people then I am. I don't know what I have become over the years. School is supposed to teach me how to become a better human being, every time I go to school it feels like I have a fishbowl over my head, choking and torturing me to do better whenever I try to sit back. I live such an unhappy life and I still have 2 years left on my clock. What should I do? I wasn't like this before..</p>
<p>You don’t have to get perfect grades to get into a good college. The only thing that matters in the end is how you do in college, not what college you go to.</p>
<p>If you think HS is bad, wait until college.
To put it simply, many of these things repeat in college. </p>
<p>Also, why shouldn’t you reach for the standards you set for yourself. If you don’t have an aim or goal, it’s not worth doing. Don’t shoot at the air. </p>
<p>Life is tough, HS is a shelter from it. People betray others in real life, things even worse happen in college and real life, and HS pales in comparison.</p>
<p>I really REALLY recommend joining a sports team /exercising regularly. Can’t tell you how much sports have helped me relieve stress and forget about school. </p>
<p>Also, I recommend becoming friends with people that don’t care a lot about school/mostly talk about other things. This also helps take your mind off school.</p>
<p>And finally, make sure you get some sleep. Sleep makes everything look a little better!</p>
<p>Hey rymugsy, thanks for the advice. I have been sleeping at 3 for the past month, so paranoid about my studies. I will definitely try to follow your solution, and see if that works.</p>
<p>Just remember this: you’re not alone. All of us have gone through rough times where we hate pretty much everything. Surround yourself with nice people, work hard, and I promise you’ll go far in life.</p>
<p>Hey pixels, thanks. Even though my school is mostly made up of people trying to eat others (figure of speech), I’ll try to find a few friends that are less paranoid and still value friendship more then a few numbers.
About your second solution, I never have the motivation to work hard. Nothing I learn interests me at all; all the classes I have chosen are because they are advanced classes. My real passion is entrepreneurship. I procrastinate a lot looking at different companies etc. Any suggestions for a procrastinator like me that has no motivation to do anything?</p>
<p>You can’t go through life with such a pessimistic attitude. The fact there is competition at your school should be all the reason to try your best. If you fail doing so, at least you tried. Like the previous poster, HS is a shelter from the real world. Right now you don’t have bills, a full-time job, children, etc. so you should be using your time in HS to work hard, while also enjoying yourself. Contemplating suicide over grades and your school will accomplish nothing. The fact that someone would end their own life, when there are countless good people in the world fighting to survive (ex: people with cancer), is beyond me. </p>
<p>Thanks cboback567, I’ll try to adapt a more optimistic attitude towards life. Contemplating suicide over grades does sound a bit absurd, as a matter of fact, they are just petty numbers on a sheet of paper. I don’t know how I changed into such a mindless human being.</p>
<p>Thank you tryhardclass.
I think your post embodies what a lot of students overall, and not just here at CC, feel. Though I do not agree with some of your opinions, I do respect and appreciate that you were honest and allowed people to at least try to understand what you feel. </p>
<p>I know all of us are aware that there are certainly more difficult situations in life that cannot be compared to high school life. They may have more relevance to us at a later time, but no matter how many times others tell you that high school life is nothing compared to other things it still feels relevant now. No matter how small it may appear to one person, for students worries are magnified and scrutinized. Don’t you think it’s even harder for students in this day and age? </p>
<p>Even myself, I question my adequacy. I see my friends feel like that too.
What really helps me is music. I don’t know. That probably sounds clich</p>
<p>Best advice I can give you right now is just to chill. Seriously, just 5 years from now, those numbers will mean nothing. Just relax, find something to do, like a sport how rymugsy suggested. Really, in a few years, people could care less about your GPA and SAT scores. Just keep moving forward, one day at a time, keep thinking about all the good things in life.</p>
<p>Your glass can be half full or half empty, your call.</p>
<p>Does writing all that make you feel better? If so, I suggest keeping a journal, seriously.</p>
<p>Also, go see a counselor or something, or talk to your guidance counselor.</p>
<p>You should go find your passion. Something that no matter how hard your day has been or how tired you are, you will still find happiness in doing so. Once I found my first passion, I went on to find so many more. In the fall, playing golf is what keeps me going. In those several hours, I feel like I’m on top of the world. All of my worries are gone, and it’s so relaxing. I could’ve been your clone three years ago, but now I know how to release the anger and frustration.</p>
<p>My best way to vent is to listen to the “American Idiot” album Green Day (old, but still my fave), and write for my blog. I’ll write about anything, as long as it takes my mind off my problems and lets me relax. Try starting a blog, and find some music you like, and just relax sometimes. Forget about the world, and just chill. </p>
<p>Completely relate to pretty much every point on your list.
Sports do help. I miss having swim practice after school every day.
Do you have something that motivates you to work as hard as you do? A career path that you can focus on to keep you moving?
Or perhaps, a side hobby to distract you from it all?
I play piano as a way to cope, personally.</p>
<p>I couldn’t even get through the post the first time that I tried to because there’s so much “hate”. The fact that you’re thinking about committing suicide indicates that there needs to be a change of some sort, whether it be of mindset or of situation is irrelevant. Try to start seeing the positives of high school, and attempt to fix the negatives. You said that social relationships take lower precedence to academics. Why not try to make friends outside of your school system? I know that may be really difficult depending on your current connections (or lack thereof), but it’s a worth a try if everybody in your school is hyper-focused on grades. Even befriending people on the internet via forums or gaming can be worthwhile; I’ve met some of my best friends through online gaming (I even met up with ~6/7 of them in NYC a couple summers ago, and I’ve known them for about eight to nine years now). Obviously watch out for stranger-danger.</p>