<p>Only read this is you have time and want to help me.</p>
<p>I have always looked forward to attending Community College, my vision had always been that once I left high school, I would ace college, find a job at the bank, and make more friend (Kinda), and have a better lifestyle regarding health.</p>
<p>In high school towards the end I had been very depressed because I was kind of lonely and depressed about school and hated my job at cold stone, I was in a hole where every day was the same and at that point there was no meaning of life to me, the only thing that kept me going (smiling) was thinking of my life changing utterly in college.</p>
<p>School was shallow and I was pretty much the only one that stood out of the crowd it seemed (I had friends but I kind of didn't like anyone too much)...during breaks instead of hanging out with friends I'd walk around constantly checking the time.</p>
<p>Work was horrible, I work with my worst enemy from school which Im very jelous of, he hardly works but is extremely avarice even for a dollar. He always sat in the office but stayed over time and had the most hours and got a lot of money for that, never has spent a single dollar of it on anything, so I was jelous that he had money but the only thing that kept me happy was that he'd stay at that place for his whole life and later i'd be making a lot more money with college, last week he started talking about college and how much money hed make after and i just froze, i was so mad because all that hope I had about staying away from him vanished, and today, the worst thing in the world happened, he decided to work at a bank, nevertheless the bank I wanted to work at, this just killed me, also i think he might get the job instead of me since he applied already. any suggestions on how not to care?</p>
<p>about school, i promised i'd work hard and never procastinate, well, i have a summer class and let's just say things aren't going as planned, like right now i should be working on an essay but im holding off, also, i dont know if i can nail that A i need. this just changed my whole perspective on life in a negative way. (p.s. if i get a b and tell my prof that i underestimated work and school do you think hell be resonable?)</p>
<p>I really think im depressed and im too young to be like this, i hate being home alone everyday and just don't know how ill possible get close to new people enough to go out...</p>
<p>about working out and eating healthy i dont even care anymore</p>
<p>i kind of dont care about anything anymore, i dont even get along with my family, my family fights with me because they think i get crazy of small things that dont go well (like an example is when i had no gas whatsoever and i took my anger out on everyone and made it seem like my whole day was ruined)</p>
<p>anything will help just give me some advice</p>