<p>Okay, well i started college fall of 2012. I started off with only 2 classes. Psychology, and African American History. I got a C in history, But i failed the psych final. and she totally failed me, an F. I only started off with two classes because i didnt have financial aid. So my Advisor told me to take a few classes so I wouldnt have to pay much. When i signed up for spring. I had financial aid. and signed up as a full time student. I was doing well in terms of attending the classes. For the first 2 weeks. One night when i just finished typing up my English paper, my grandfather, is screaming at the top of his lungs. As he does everyday. I was fed up, and i went to him and tried to calm him down before i fell asleep, because my mom was also asleep and i wanted her to rest because hes always bothering her. He's always cursing at us to die and all that crap. And we do everything for him and he never appreciated a thing. His own kids dont even take care of him. (which is my father, his brother, and two sisters. who btw, are living at ease, not even visiting their father). So I go to him, and tell himm to please go to sleep and its late. He told me to shut up and go die. Out of anger, I yelled back at him and told him to die. The next day, he didnt wake up. I can help but somehow feel guilty. I loved him, he just was out of his mind.. And I couldnt deal with it. He died the day before i told him to die and explained to him how much i dislike him. I cried the day he died. I could never forgive myself. I stopped going to classes all in all. I'm sure i failed these classes, expcept for freshman seminar. and one class agreed to give me an incomplete as i explained to her what happened. Everytime i pass by my grandfathers room, i have a panic attack. i cant help but remember that night. All in all, I need to get back up on my feet. I know i can do better this fall. What can I do? I have one incomplete, one C, and the other classes withdrawed me from the class. I now have to pay 2,300 dollars for the classes i didnt attend, and i might be on academic probationn. My parents arent aware that i didnt attend these classes, I would leave the house as if im going to class, but i'd go to the boxing gym, and throw combos all day. expressing my anger and my guilt. I dont need to hear that i messed up badly. because i know i did. What am i supposed to do about the money. my parents. how to do better? Please. I need help. I have no one to talk to. No one to tell this to. Everyone tends to just judge me, when they have no idea whats going on with me. Please.</p>
<p>My only suggestion is to talk to your advisor and your professors. Tell them exactly what has happened in your life. Be honest and upfront. Are you going to be able to start again and really be able to work this time? Do you need to take off some time to get your head together and refocus? Is there a counseling center on campus where you could go and talk to someone. Best of luck to you and sorry all this has happened.</p>
<p>Lammb66 is wise. That’s exactly what you should do.</p>
<p>Try to explain your second semester; it can’t hurt. But, there’s still the matter of a GPA around 1.0 first semester when you were just part time. You’re no longer talking one bad semester.</p>
<p>Talk to an advisor at the university, make sure they understand you should have dropped all the classes and did not, see if they can retroactively drop you from the entire semester. It is possible you may then owe some tuition since the classes were not completed, though, but at least your record would be better once you are ready to move forward. Perhaps you should take a year off, get everything together and then return prepared to be successful in all your classes.</p>
<p>Just about every university has a counseling office that students can see for free. That should be your first stop. That office can then advocate on your behalf to you academic advisor, college, major, etc. usually for petitions to late withdrawal you will some sort of documentation on what the extenuating circumstances were in order to have the withdrawals granted. In the meantime there is nothing wrong with taking a semester off for a bit of a break to get back in the right frame of mind and to choose your next semesters classes very carefully. You could also look at taking a few CLEP tests to “catch up” to where you want to be so that you don’t feel like you are falling behind. Good luck!</p>
<p>Please go to the college counseling center. They can help you figure out classes, money. They can help you work on the guilt. They can help you feel better and find a better direction. The counseling center is the place to start.</p>
<p>I agree with everyone here. Be honest upfront and keep pushing forward. This is why college is four years…so you have time to get on the right path.</p>
<p>My first quarter of college, I had a 1.75 GPA. I graduated four years later with a 3.10.</p>