I'm Falling Apart.

<p>lol calm down dude...
Too many people are saying:
if I don't get in this college, that means I can't do justice to my major, then if I don't do justice to my major, I won't get an internship, without an internship, no high-paying job, withhout that high-paying job, I'll waste away poor and lonely in a food pantry</p>

<p>It aint over with college, besides, graduate schools are increasingly MORE important. Your first choice, second choice, w/e... I just wanna go to college.</p>

<p>Things are so horrible for me right now. After my ED rejection I'm uber paranoid about my essays. I'm almost positive that thats what sealed the deal for my rejection. So now I have to have spectacular essays for UVA not only to get in but to make the Echols program. The pressure is on because my sis is the first one from this area to get into the program and my parents won't let that go. I've got one essay down and I've had two people read it and I spent the whole day revising it. Now I'm sitting up freaking out about whether its good or not. I need to calm down. I'm just glad schools out for the holidays. I'm thinking one essay a day should be good but I won't rest until they are all done. Including my other college essays. Did I mention I'm freaking out?</p>

<p>lol calm down, it's 1:22 am, but I'll read ur essay if you want... I'm an ok writer.
<a href="mailto:ml8878@yahoo.com">ml8878@yahoo.com</a></p>

<p>hahaha baggins i can completely relate, im totally paranoid now as well</p>

<p>That would be great. I'll send it right now. I had to cut out a bunch of things because of the word limit. What's really bothering me is that I have to pretty much revise this essay, make it longer, and put it in for my common app essay as well.</p>

<p>yeah, the thing is, though, is that i dont know what i want to major in anyways. i just want to go to a good school. i guess the factors that im most concerned about are the location, the campus, the people... diversity and welcomeness and what not, and obviously the education i guess. idk maybe im being superficial.</p>

<p>baggins, ignore your parents. and stop freaking out. i'll read them too. i can edit fairly well, if you so wish; <a href="mailto:aeswarappa@gmail.com">aeswarappa@gmail.com</a></p>

<p>Okay I've sent it.</p>

<p>Yeah I know I should ignore my parents but part of me wants it too. My family is very competitive and this is just one thing that I feel like I have to do.</p>

<p>Orca25 one peice of advice don't read any stats right now. It means a lot more when you know you contribute to them.</p>

<p>yeah, thats def good advice, but i guess it's too late lol. ive become obsessed w/ reading other stats. are you referring to stats about the college in general or other ppl's? either way, i need to stop. :( theres no point in it whatsoever</p>

<p>Mainly the college you've been rejected from but also the ones you are applying to. Because either way they aren't pretty.</p>

<p>I'm doing it...</p>

<p>baggins, it's in the inbox</p>

<p>wow that was quick and very thurough. Thanks a lot. I'm most definately going to take some of that advice. You know that part about my grandfather, I had more in there but had to cut it out because of the length. I'm thinking I should leave it out altogether then.</p>

<p>mine's over too, lol, sorry it took so long.</p>

<p>did you see pirates of the caribbean?</p>

<p>"hang the code! they're more like guidelines anyway." if you had good stuff, keep it in. if it was maudlin, lurching, and poorly written, like a lot of stuff on death and disease tends to be, leave it out.</p>

<p>and you're welcome by the way</p>

<p>"Mainly the college you've been rejected from but also the ones you are applying to. Because either way they aren't pretty."</p>

<p>lol, are you like reading my mind or something? lol yeah, i do need to stop going on THAT forum.......</p>

<p>Haha I love that movie. Thats pretty good advice too. </p>

<p>the_wanderer thanks I got yours too.</p>

<p>Wow this is great stuff. I was thinking you guys would skim it over and give a few suggestions but its great. Thanks a lot.</p>

<p>hehe I stopped going to THAT forum too. I'm glad other people got in but I'm too down to read their happy posts.</p>

<p>no problem. i'm going to head to bed now, but anything you want proofread or anything, feel free to send my way and i will see it in the morning.</p>

<p>Goodnight moon!</p>

<p>Thanks again. I haven't done the rest of my essays but I'll try to send them to you when I finish. </p>

<p>I think I'll go to bed now too. Night everyone.</p>

<p>peachy, </p>

<p>I am about to start 2nd year at university and i also take forever to write essays. I would love to be one of those people who are able to get wonderful grades and write their essay the night before, but i am not that blessed. My last essay i got a HD (that equals a 85% and where i am from only a handfull of people get a HD). I am in no way brilliant, i just worked hard at it for hours.</p>

<p>Its not very fair for people to make comments about how people will or wont cope in college. There is a huge pressure when you are in high school and once you get into college much of it gets lifted and you have much more control and are able to structure your day/life. I know many very talented high schoolers who bombed at university and i know many mediocore students who thrived once they were able to focus on their passion. </p>

<p>It sounds like you are much more calm compaired to when you initially wrote this thread so i am not sure if my advice is invalid now or not. However, my advice is to attack one thing at a time. I realise that is alot easier said than done. Once you can put the stress of everything else you have to do out of your mind you can focus on the task at hand much better. Denial can be handy! </p>

<p>Good luck with it all. It may feel like the end of the world but it not. (i never belived anyone when they told me that either heh)</p>