<p>Hi everyone...</p>
<p>So, I've been having a lot of issues with school lately. It's at the point now where I guess I've mentally "checked out" and I'm not even really trying anymore.</p>
<p>I'm trying to get accepted into a selective program. I won't be able to be accepted until Fall 2014, but I'm taking the prereqs now and I want to apply after this semester. The thing is that I may not be accepted anyway, and then I have no idea what I'll do. Plus the more I think about working in that field, the less appealing it seems... low pay, long hours, very stressful. But it's the only 'real job' I can think of doing that I think I would probably enjoy. (Really, I want to be writer, and maybe start a business, but I know that's really hard to do).</p>
<p>It also doesn't help that I have a D right now in one of my classes because the professor is impossible. The class averages on the last two exams were 61 and 58. Everyone is doing poorly in her class, and she's blaming it on us not studying enough. This is obviously discouraging and I don't even want to bother trying anymore.</p>
<p>I really just want to work. I have a job that I love, but it's only part time, and they aren't hiring anyone full time right now. And I couldn't move out or live on my own with how much it pays. I never really wanted to go to college in the first place - at the very least I wanted to take a year off, but my parents didn't want me to - but it seemed like a better option than the 'real world.' I hate that nearly everything I'm "learning" (*memorizing) will be completely useless anywhere else. I always did well in school, but I hated all the memorization of pointless facts.</p>
<p>Pretty much the only thing keeping me in school is the fact that I'll have to start paying back my loans if I drop out, and my parents would most likely make me start paying rent or kick me out if I wasn't in school. I don't know what to do. I'm just so done with all of this.</p>