<p>Hmm, if this is the wrong forum, please move it, mods. lol</p>
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<p>I'm a freshman who just completed linear algebra and multivariable calc this year. I want to take more math classes and do well. I'm not doing terrible right now, but I want to improve not just grade-wise but also in my understanding. Here is my situation, and I would really appreciate if you guys could help.</p>
<p>I found I could not keep up with the pace of things in class. Why? Maybe it's a lack of interest, a slow processing speed when it comes to the computations, or I'm just bad at learning conceptual subjects audibly. This didn't worry me too much, since I've always been like this and still did well in Calc BC in high school. And so I zoned out through most of my classes and did most of my learning through the book. I found that trying to read the book explicitly, meaning going line by line and stopping whenever I didn't fully understand a concept, got me nowhere. I could do it, but it took way too much time, and often I would hit mind-blocks that would be extraordinarily difficult to resolve. Often, I would end up more confused than informed. Such is the case when a misunderstanding of a new theorem undermines a correct understanding of a previous theorem (<em>sigh</em>). But I found the information was much more manageable if I absorbed the substance in a roundabout, implicit manner. </p>
<p>By this I mean that I would half-skim the material at a reasonable pace, gathering momentum as I proceeded and just bowling over any conceptual obstacles I encountered. I might end up doing this several times. But pure repetition was not enough. I also required time, where, I guess, the concepts could incubate in my head. I know this because I would fail most of our weekly quizzes, because they were so proximal, but come test time I would have a sufficient handle to score very high. After much experience, I realized my brain was doing most of the work subconsciously. Only slowly and implicitly could I get the gist of what was going on. This method produced test results (though I failed the quizzes and couldn't do the homework on time), but I feel like I haven't really learned anything. Of course I've learned 'something', and at times I feel like my brain has been stretched quite far. However, a nagging feeling tells me that I've just learned how to process new and complex algorithms, to tie vague ideas to a list of formulas, and to do shallow manipulations in very standardized ways. I feel like my experience has been more ad hoc than systematic.</p>
<p>To inject a little objectivity into my narrative, this situation makes perfect sense in light of an intelligence test I took at a psychologists' office a year ago. To compress a broad matter into a few sentences, I did poorly on the block design test but very well on the memory sub-portion of the Weschler test. The block design test is regarded as the most valid test of mathematical conceptual capabilities. Obviously, I'm weak here (very weak compared to the rest of my subscores). On the other hand, I have a particularly strong memory. Memory has an episodic (long-term) and a working (short-term) component, and both were very good. The low block test score suggests that I cannot conceptualize heavy mathematical ideas very well, but the high memory score suggests that the concepts I do learn will be retained effectively via episodic memory and manipulated efficiently via working memory.</p>
<p>Thanks for reading all the way down here. Now for some specific questions I have.... Given the information I have provided, do you think my self-evaluation is fair? If so, is there a point to continuing with math? I know that from now on, math will get much more abstract. From what I know, real analysis (building a deeper, firmer basis for everything we learned in calculus) seems like it would be really cool. But I might be beating my head against the wall if I can't fully digest the proof for double integrals. Given how easy and standardized my tests have been (at a top-20 school), is it even expected that we do more than just learn algorithms -- meaning, should I even be worried? Can most good multivariable students understand the proof for Gauss's theorem, for example? On one hand, I realize analysis would use less memorization. On the other hand, I find that I do better on conceptual work that starts from the ground up (I did much better in linear alg than multi calc). For someone like me, would a more theoretical course like analysis be worse or better? I feel like I'm missing a lot of the basic of mathematics because I've scraped by for so long on my memory alone (I was atrocious in this respect in high school). Is there some basic math theory book/website that I could get acquainted with, which could also provide me with some kind of indicator of whether I want to or even can progress further in math?</p>