<p>I am a first year mcb major at uc berkeley and messed up terribly my first semester. I got an F in chem 1a, an A- in 1aL,a D in Math 53, and a B+ in classics. There are many reasons why, I switched into chem 1a after the first midterm had already passed, I never really learned how to study for stem subjects in high school, and i got more anxiety attacks due to my rough transition to college life. But primarily, I blame myself for not taking action after failing my first midterm by talking to my professors. I didnt even know chem 1a had pre class assignments and online study guides until a few weeks before the final.. I did go to study groups for chem 1a though and while they were helpful in me understanding the material, i still had a hard time actually solving problems when worksheets were given out. I crammed like crazy before every exam. As for math, it has always been my weakest subject and i didnt put nearly as much work into that class as i should have, so i think i deserved not to pass. But I am really upset over chem because it felt like i was putting in alot of mental energy into trying to understand the subject only for my results to be so bad I might as well have slept through the class.
I cannot begin to describe how ashamed and defeated i feel. I do plan to overhaul my study habits next semester, I am taking bio 1b and a bunch of easier breadths. And i plan to retake math and chem over summer.
I just want to know how screwed i am in terms of finding a research position in a lab and getting into grad school (or med school?). I have considered changing my major, and will do so depending on how i do next semester. I just dont wanna give up just yet. any advice otherwise?</p>