<p>I got dismissed from my university for failing to bring my gpa up to a 2.0 for 3 semesters. I return to community college and took spanish that would go towards my bachelor degree; I'm doing well in spanish. I should give you a brief background. I started off college majoring in pre-med hoping to be a doctor. I slack off, poor studying skills, and depressing view of myself. So when I got accepted to a university, I randomly change my major to political science...... And here I am 3 years later not accomplishing anything. I had a good life being shelter and supported by my parents, but it becoming harder for them with age and 2 other children. I'm looking for work now. I got remitted to the university for this summer, but i lost my financial aid eglibility. I have 172 attempted credit hours, and still need 17 more credit hours to earn a bachelor degree in political science. Even when i get that degree, I don't know what to do with it. I hate 2 of the 5 remaining class with a passion. I picked my 2nd major due to my slight interest in law and til this day I still do not understand politics nor keep myself inform of current politics occuring in the States and around the world. I'm always drawn to health related stuff. these thoughts keep replaying and its maddening. My best friend, the only person i talk to try to help me and give guidance, but its so hard. Making this one hell of a mess was so easy, cleaning it up is very very hard. Even harder when I don't know what to do with my life, and my learning capabilities is at the level of a 4th grader. Other problems i have is I don't like being around people or commit to work. I know for a fact and I feel that I'm the worst person in the world with exception to criminals maybe and murderers. If I continue school I would need to apply for private loan and further burden my parents because i need a cosigner........ My parents are very traditional and since i'm their oldest kid, I'm first person in my family be in college. My younger brother is the 2nd person and we're not making them proud at all. After the mess I create during the past 6 yrs, I'm helping him with however I can to put him back on track. With no goals/dreams, no accomplishment, and not understanding anything. not to mention I don't help my parents out at all and they work so hard. I'm like a monster and I just want to disappear. Career wise, I just want a job I can handle and deal with as few people as possible. Since I was young I have always hate being around people. I also DO Not plan on obtaining a master or going to law school. AS some of you might know political science involves a lot of writing and funny enough I also absolutely hate writing. I didn’t know that fact until I was dismiss from school, I just assume writing assignment was what teachers love to give. To be honest til this day I can’t write a formal/professional/decent letter or note or email. Pathetic I know. What should I do with school?</p>
<p>Maybe you should find an avenue to success other than higher education?</p>
<p>I’m just so conflicted. And the fact that most student graduating with a bachelor degree these day still have trouble landing a job is very depressing. Thanks for the reply. Sorry that it was more of a vent post than a question post.</p>
<p>Thanks for making my life seem awesome xD</p>
<p>The only thing wrong with you is your negative attitude.</p>
<p>Well I know that political science grad. can sell the writing aspect to employers, become lobbyist, or consultant. As i’ve stated before I’m horrible with writing. I’ve written very straight forward letters to client and they would get confuse and not understand. I have had worst negative view/attitude. I can be pretty positive, but I wanted to be realistic. I am re-admitted to the school I was dismissed from and I’m trying to work up the courage to ask my parent to cosign. I just can’t see the long run. I need a B+ in all my classes for 3 consecutive semester to remain at USF. For the classes i have left, the class grade will consist only of essay exams and research paper. I will admit that I passed my Composition courses mainly because I had help from my best friend, who proof reads, correct my errors, and suggest what I could add more. I have quite a few grammar books and still don’t get grammar either. Which is why i’m positive, then negative and repeats all day all. Even my dad who speak english as a second language is extremely disappointed, because as a person born and raise in the States I should be fluent in writing.</p>
<p>Have you thought about getting an English tutor? You mentioned frequently that you don’t understand grammar, can’t write well, etc. Maybe that would help.</p>
<p>Move to Europe. The governments over there are much more willing to support people like yourself.</p>
<p>I normally don’t take my time to answer questions on this site but, I must say I truly feel saddened for you. Not because you made some mistakes on your education, but because you put yourself down so much and think you can’t do anything. I know it probably won’t mean much seeing as I am just a HS student but I honestly think you can get back on track. I had a slump last year and thought that I was doomed for failure and I just didn’t care anymore. But then I thought, there is always time to make a clean slate. Your not even 1/4 done with living your life. You still have plenty of time! Regarding writing, not everyone is good at everything, maybe your just not good at writing. I suggest either develop a new found interest, or maybe even find something else to do that you love. Worst comes to worse you devote another 4 years out of your ENTIRE life to do something you really enjoy. Once you grasp a career and success you will realize that although you had a slump, looking bad you can just say you accomplished what you thought would be the impossble. I know this probably didn’t really answer your question but I just truly think you needed to hear it. You haven’t failed yet. Just keep your head held high and get rid of that negative attitude.:)</p>
<p>Thank you Crazeycollege and PrincessM. I’ve just been flipping back and forth from optimistic to pessimistic. I always think of all the possible choice. I just tend to be drawn to the pessimistic side and drive people around me nuts.</p>
<p>And I agree, after months of being very depress, I really don’t have it bad since things can always be much worst. I have an A in my current spanish class and at least an 2.6 gpa at my community college. I get my A.A. degree this summer. I had an overall 2.0 gpa when I was dimissed from the university (I just wasn’t able to maintain the university course work at a 2.0 gpa). Finally I’m just praying that I survive these 5 classes, make enough from my on call job to pay loan when I graduate and in the end can survive in this world. As for grammar I’m trying to drill it into memory when I can.</p>
<p>So is it safe to say this post in general is done?</p>