<p>i feel like i'm the only one on CC who is not so anxious to receive her early decision decision. everyone else seems to want the admissions office to quickly send out the envelopes, but for some reason, i can't shake the feeling that i'll be deferred, if not flat-out rejected. i'm so scared right now -- i don't want that e-mail... or that letter, because i'm scared of what it will say. i guess i figure that even though the admissions office probably sealed my fate already, if i dont get anything, i can still keep hoping. kind of silly of me, i know. </p>
<p>i really don't think i'll be accepted. i can't even force myself to think positively. it's not that i don't have strong enough stats, or that i've egregiously screwed up my application... it's just that i'm so used to rejection... it seems that no matter how hard i try, i never get what i want. so why should this be any different? i'm hoping that it will be but ... i doubt it. i'm seriously depressed these days. i don't want my first rejection letter to be from the school that i've loved since i was three, four years old. i don't want to know that all that i've wanted my entire life will be annihilated in a few days. </p>
<p>yeah... i can see how you'd like to keep hoping i guess, but i think the torture outweighs the hope, at least for me. if i get rejected then i just want to KNOW so i can start moving on with my life! and stop thinking so negatively!! you do have a chance.</p>
<p>jerseygirl07, i can kind of relate, i don't take rejections easily either, however i definitely prefer a rejection over uncertainty about my future. therefore, i prefer to just know the result and get on with my life.</p>
<p>My friend just got deferred from elsewhere, and I think it's going to be an impetus for him to start working on RD apps. I, on the other hand, am going to probably be doing Stanford's on the 15th.</p>