<p>For my first year at community college I was short ~$600 since financial aid didn't cover all my expenses, so when I went to multiple banks to see if I could take out a loan, they all labelled me as a credit liability because I didn't have any credit nor a job at the time. I had to borrow the money from a rather well-off acquaintance and he jokingly told me to pay him back when I finished my PhD because he knows I studied hard to go back to school.</p>
<p>Next year, if I get approximately the same amount of aid as the previous year, worst case scenario I will have to get extremely lucky in finding a job (considering I could not find a job for months before I started school) for several weeks just enough to pay the tuition and then quit the job afterwards. Or I can give up my summer research opportunity and sacrifice polishing up my academic resume for transferring to a 4-year school and just find work to pay off my second year of community college.</p>
<p>I didn't think I'd have to worry about this until it came to it, but it's been concerning me for a while now...if I cannot get the money up front for even a relatively inexpensive 4-year school and financial aid will not cover me, I guess that means I cannot go to school at all until I search for jobs and work for the next several years (before I began community college, I had been looking for a job for more than half a year before I had enough and decided I needed to go back to school for an advanced degree so I could stabilize my situation better).</p>
<p>If I do choose to save up money for college, I will probably have to flip burgers for the next decade or so just to obtain a bachelor's degree, and I don't know how detrimental that will look on my application for graduate school. I will have to find an apartment and pay rent, because the last time I tried to get a job without a residence, I had a very difficult time trying to communicate with the hiring manager and attempting to get him to accodomate to my situation but he could not help due to certain rules. Which means if I want to save money, I will have to go back to living to dangerous parts of town since those are the only areas where rent is cheap and I'd really prefer not to. Even then, it'll take at least 10 years to save up for the 2 more years of college I need (on minimum wage).</p>
<p>I've also considered working while studying, but the thing is that I am not the sharpest tool in the shed so I am already putting in well between 75-100 hours per week for studies just to maintain a less-than-perfect grades, and I'm afraid if I get a full-time job, my grades will drop tremendously and I won't be accepted into any graduate schools at all, and who knows what I can do an undergraduate Physics degree.</p>
<p>For example:
If a school costs about a reasonable $20,000/year, and financial aid covers maybe half of that (I don't know how accurate that is, but the calculation of the estimates on the FAFSA site always seem wrong), I still need to come up with $5,000 per semester and on minimum wage that's approximately 700 hours of work per semester, which is a full-time 40 hours/week in a single semester (given 16 weeks in a semester).</p>
<p>If the school will somehow allow me to take courses while I pay off the semester, I will have to work full-time whilst studying, but if they won't let me in before paying the full cost of attendance first, I'm wondering if there's anything else I can do.</p>
<p>I can only imagine if I actually get into a decent undergraduate school for Physics, I'm sure it'll cost probably twice as much, which I don't mind if it all goes to debt, but if I can't find money to borrow to go into debt that'll be an issue and I don't know if I have the patience to flip burgers for 10 years just to get a start in a proper career.</p>
<p>So my question is for those of you who got through college on your own without any support...how were you able to maintain a high GPA and get into a good graduate school (particularly for the hard sciences)? I don't see too many options right now. If I could just somehow get the loans, I wouldn't even mind being in debt, even if it was a terrible interest rate. I'm confident that I'll be able to get a decent-paying job post-graduate school with a Physics PhD, especially from a brand name school, and if I can comfortably live on $10k/yr (as I've done for the past several years), then I think I'll do just fine if I can just finish school somehow.</p>