<p>Hey everyone! I've been looking around here for the past week, this is my first post, but I think this forum is wonderful! Anyway...</p>
<pre><code> I am a saxophonist, and a senior in high school. I was always afraid of majoring in music, because my stepdad didn't like the idea, and I was afraid of failure, and I thought that I have to plan out my whole entire life right this second (yes, irrational, I know). But then, a few months ago, it hit me, I NEED to do this. I absolutely love music, and I have to at least try majoring it, trying to make it, because I don't want to go through life wondering what would have happened if I had done this. My mom is definitely okay with it, she thinks its great that I am going for something I love, and she plays the clarinet, and my stepdad is, I dunno, getting used to the idea, though it hurts when he kind of makes fun of my decision, but I'm getting off topic...
Well, I always thought I was going to go off to a big school in a city far away, you know, but when I visited actually visited some schools, I realized that I am definitely not ready to go to a big school, or one more than 2-3 hours away from home. I think it would be way better for me to be in a smaller environment, because one of the things I really enjoy about high school is getting to know my teachers and being able to talk to them and knowing they care about me.
So, I think I have a plan. I live in Maryland, and I think that I really want to go to Peabody. The positives are that it is a small school, but in a city, close to home (parents could come see performances), great saxophone teacher, they have classical and jazz, I could take classes at JHU, which is good because I want to be well rounded and I have interests other than music, and from what I've read here, it sounds like its not cut-throat, and that it is a nice, friendly place. I think money is the only negative, but hopefully I can get some scholarships and figure out loans.
I guess the reason I'm posting this, is because I am wondering if you guys think I'm going to limit myself by going to a conservatory? I am serious about music, and I want to try this, but I have all of these what ifs in my mind. I don't think I should be worrying about what I'm going to do with a music degree right now, my mom and teachers say its good to major in something you love doing, since college is more life experience than a specific career skill. Also, these decisions aren't set in stone, right? People change majors and careers, and it doesn't kill them, right?
Basically, I know that I want to dedicate the rest of my life to becoming the best musician I can be, and at this point in my life, I don't want to worry about what that will mean as far as what I'm doing in the future, if that makes any sense, is that bad?
Is there anyone here who is going to Peabody or has a kid going there with any thoughts on the school. Its seems perfect for me, and I'm visiting them this coming Monday, November 27, I'm very excited. Also, does anyone know how their jazz program is? And, anyone know if I can major in classical performance and jazz? I can probably ask these questions when I visit them... but I'm just curious what you guys think.
Oh, also, I'm worried about if I don't think Peabody is right for me, I don't know of any small or medium sized school around here (within a 2-3 hours) with an amazing music program. What are some good, small schools for music around Maryland?
Thank you so much, and I'm sorry about the obnoxiously long post. College is just freaking me out a little bit (but I am soooo excited!).
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