When I first went into undergraduate studies my goal was to come out with a BM in music education on move on to a single subject teaching credential program; however, that was not the case. I ended up graduating with a BA in music with no concentration. The BM demands so much time, concentration, and passion, and I know many of you may agree with me when I say that it is too overwhelming when we also have activities outside of academia to deal with.
Throughout my entire time at my institution I felt overwhelmingly stressed and could not keep up with the material while many of my colleagues grasped concepts at a much faster pace (especially theory, musicianship, and pedagogy). Eventually I gave in and could handle it no longer, dropping the BM and switching to a BA.
I had no idea what I would do after graduating, but I can tell you that it has not been easy. As of now the only activity that I do, music related, is teaching saxophone privately while working a part-time as a retail worker with varying hours every week. It’s difficult to find a career in music when there is so much competition and employers only want the best of the best (even for entry level positions!), and it’s not just the field of music. You will come to learn people of every major (even the sciences) are having trouble finding anything in their field. Sure, you could be an unpaid intern, but sometimes that is out of the question when you have to pay for rent, groceries, gas, utilities, etc.
The one thing that I wish upon all music majors (and those who have already graduated) is to NOT LOSE YOUR PASSION. Even before graduating I felt my passion for music diminish, and I believe that is because I gave up on what I set out to do. I spend much less time practicing, my teaching methods for my students has become lazy, and I am not involved in any ensemble.
Steadily I have been trying to regain the passion that I once had in hopes of regaining that dire to be a public school music teacher, but the process is not easy. I am currently in the process of taking all the tests required to enter a preliminary teaching credential program, so that’s a start. I have begun to listen to more of the composers I love (Respighi, Whitacre, Dvorak, Glass, etc.), which Eric Whitacre believes is one of the best things to help you remember why you set out on this long, difficult journey.
To those who are new to the music major, DO NOT GIVE UP. I know all the piano, theory, sight singing, and demand of your private instructors will seem overwhelming, but you will get through it. Listen to your favorite piece (or song) by your favorite composer every day to help remind yourself why you are doing this. And most importantly, STAY PASSIONATE! Many of you might not feel as passionate as you used to be and not even know it because you are too distracted by all the stress. Talk to professors you’re close to, especially your private instructors, for surely many of them have gone through the same thing.
I urge any of you that have ever felt this way to reply and share your stories, for all of us music majors are one big family.
I wish you all the best of luck in your studies,
Cheers!