<p>Hey, I have a question about emailing a professor, if you don't mind bearing with me (I'm wordy, sorry).</p>
<p>To give background: In my freshman comp class, I'm a fraction of a point shy of an A (92.8 %), having received two 100's, a 91, and 83 on the essays and a 90 in participation, all of which are weighted equally. The essay grade I expected because while writing I was fatigued and sick with whatever was going around the dorm (lots of interesting stuff actually; one girl had whooping cough! So old school! But all her oxen survived! That was good :P) and was confused about other aspects of the assignment, but the participation grade surprised me. I was one of 3 students in a class of 12 to participate regularly from the very first class (by which I mean to make several substantial, coherent contributions per class that are both relevant to the material and unique rather than repetitive or rambling retreads). I prepared a lot, even if no writing was due; if I felt I was having difficulty processing my thoughts on the reading, I designed prompts and forced myself to write brief half page responses to streamline and clarify my ideas for discussion. I had inquired about my participation grade towards the last few weeks of the semester and was told I was in good standing for an A.</p>
<p>I figured there was one potential issue: I have a heart condition for which I take medication to prevent hypertension and while I usually have no problems in class, there was one week where I would intermittently experienced sharp pain in my arms and tightness in my chest. This occurred once during comp class, in the middle of a student presentation, and I was having trouble focusing on it. I did not think the episode would last long or that it was worth excusing myself for (especially since I didn't want to be disrupt or miss the presentation), so I put my head down for a few minutes so i could rest my chest and arms on the table and tried to keep my eyes focused on the student. I didn't think it was a huge deal though. Also, hen I asked shortly after if I could know where I stood in terms of participation, it did not appear to be. I admit, the response was very roundabout and vague, something about how I was an A student and shouldn't worry about the numbers. Still, while that may not mean much at all, it was emphasized there wasn't anything that would be considered lacking or problematic.</p>
<p>Yet now I'm told I appeared generally disinterested for the last part of the semester, because a) I did not participate in an in-class peer review by completing a worksheet without being told and b) the aforementioned incident in class. The thing is, I did participate in the review. I even arrived to class early. I responded to the worksheet in writing, only I wrote all my responses on the draft I was reviewing, so I could give it straight back to the other student as quickly as possible. I repeated everything I wrote out loud in class to the student to make sure it was clear in spite of my small handwriting. When I realized it was important to the teacher that we write on the worksheet as well, I took the draft back briefly and transferred my comments. I contributed a few comments to the following discussion as well. And as for b), why is it suddenly an issue now when it wasn't before?</p>
<p>So I wrote back to ask if we could discuss and to say that I felt there may be a misunderstanding. I said that I felt I had participated in that I arrived and began early, commented on such and such in the draft in response to question #1 and such and such in response to #2, etc., repeated things verbally (within earshot of the teacher), and, when I realized I had written in the wrong space, transferred my answers. I emphasized that I recognized the importance of the assignment and hesitated to write directly on the worksheet due to misunderstanding, not disrespect. I explained that I had this condition and that while I did put my head down, I did so because I wanted to be able to concentrate, did not want to interrupt the presentation and didn't know how else to cope. I emphasized here that I really did not mean to disrespect the presenter or appeared uninterested and asked if there were any other reasons s/he would think I was uninterested. </p>
<p>The response to all this was, 'I wish you had told me about your illness at the beginning of the semester instead of now.' That was it. The email said nothing on whether what I described of my work in peer review constituted participation or not or whether there were other reasons I was perceived as uninterested. It did not say anything else at all. </p>
<p>So my question is what do you think it means. Does this mean my questions are not considered valid? And how to respond? I would like to clarify, this is not that serious an illness IMO. I had a problems this one week, took steps to physically de-stress, started carrying less, pushed to renegotiate my roommate agreement to have a midnight lights-out policy (I'm very light sensitive even with masks; previous my roommate was going to bed 3 or 4 a.m., meaning I had to sleep elsewhere- common rooms, class rooms; it was a little colder downstairs), and I got better. I have a cardiology check-up coming up in case anyway. While it happens time to time and sure will probably happen again as the days get longer, I don't think it normally would warrant pre-emptive discussion. It was a relatively isolated incident. And since the duration was relatively short and there were no concerns when I asked afterwards, I figured there was no reason to bring it up. To be honest, I prefer to avoid discussing my health. I won't refuse if someone asks about my scar but otherwise it seems more trouble than it's worth. Is there a way to say this and bring up the previous questions that were not answered again tactfully? perhaps i could pm what i want to say to someone?</p>
<p>And yeah, I do realize this is a relatively trivial issue, so I just want to say, I know it's not a bad grade. I would like to ask anyway because I put a lot of work into all aspects of the class- wrote many, many drafts (even on the final paper while I was sick, though the effort was evidently less fruitful); came early; did a lot of preparation for discussion, etc. I would be happy with the grade in most circumstances if I had lost the points for reasons I understood, but it would be somewhat frustrating to have to accept a drop in GPA due being a fifth of a point short for what amounts IMO to a misunderstanding and an isolated incident in which I did my best to recover. I admit this is in part perfectionist tendency (not having the 4.0 cumulative on some level = loosening my hold on my post-grad aspirations; this is a CC forumite, after all), but I'm also taking a very heavy load next semester; who know if that drop may come back to haunt me at the end of the semester before scholarship renewal? I'm not going to have this teacher again, so it seems worth it to at least ask.</p>