<p>Last year, I was in my first semester of grad school, and it was rough stuff. Prior to choosing schools, I was really debating on two different degree plans, and I ultimately chose one over the other because I was told it was a "safer choice." Still, I was jazzed about grad school, as I'd always wanted to be a professor.</p>
<p>During the course of my first semester, however, my boyfriend broke up with me, my mother turned psycho-martyr-mom and disowned me, and, two days before finals, my dad died. (It was a tough semester, to be sure.) I was in the middle of writing my last paper when I heard the news about my dad, and when I tried to contact the professor of the paper I was writing, he was out of town skiing and didn't answer calls. I was totally in a space of complete devastation, and I didn't pay as close attention as I normally would to the paper that I was writing, and ended up plagiarizing it. I didn't even know I'd done it (chalk it up to the notion of "just put my head down and get it done" instead of paying attention to what I was copying and paraphrasing and what I was directly citing) until I got the paper back after finals and he'd said I'd plagiarized the paper.</p>
<p>The graduate committee talked him down from reporting me to the school, to simply failing me for the course...but they required me to take a year off of school, and come back the following fall to retake the course. If I retook the course, the F would be gone, and as long as I made As in the other courses I took that semester, I'd be golden, and be able to continue on as normal.</p>
<p>The problem is, it's been a year of stress (dealing with my dad's estate and rectifying the relationship with my mom), and the more I'm away from the school, the more I realize it's not the degree plan I want to go back to. When I think about what I want to spend the rest of my life doing, it's the second degree plan (the one I didn't choose). I don't want to pay the thousands of dollars it's going to cost to go back up to the midwest (I'm living 5 states away now) and complete a degree I'd only be "mostly happy" with. It's not the kind of school or the kind of degree plan I wanted. (It was a real wake-up call, as it's a research1 school, and I'd come from a very liberal-arts based college in my undergrad, which I thrive on.)</p>
<p>So...am I screwed? Do I have a choice? If I don't go back to this school, will I ever be able to get into another grad school again? Do I have to suck it up, move back up there for (at least) a semester, retake the class, and then see what my options are from there? Is there any way to ask my current school what my options are without them completely dropping me?</p>
<p>(And yes, I realize the severity of what happened, and it was a one-time occurrence that would never be repeated. I also recognize this school has granted me a boon by not expelling me, but their decision should tell you that the circumstances around this time were extremely dire. It's no excuse for what happened, but they were definitely extenuating circumstances.)</p>