<p>ursel4some1likeu... I am FREAKING OUT!!!!! No, really, people have noticed. </p>
<p>Is it weird that I want to be home when I check it? Last year this girl got rejected from Harvard while in the library and it was a scene. I don't like crying in front of people.</p>
<p>And my stuffed animals don't judge me. Much.</p>
<p>wooooo he faxed it in. finally. dang.</p>
<p>i had a breakdown today at my mock trial coach's office and he laughed at me. i seriously am beside myself, i can feel myself boring other people when i obsess.</p>
<p>I only talk to my nerdy group of friends. I am a girl of many different alliances, and right now, the nerds are the only ones who don't shoot me dirty looks for obsessing.</p>
<p>haha fringey we are one and the same. if i even say a word to any of my other friends they say either "shut up smart kid" or "i'll kill you b*&%#. its bad news bears.</p>
<p>oh, and can i say that word here? i wasnt sure</p>
<p>ohmygosh. nine days. urgh i almost dont want my decision because then i can go on living in my ignorant bliss. =P</p>
<p>Yeah seriously... I've been like suffering from asphyxia today since I saw that decisions are coming out next Friday... I don't know whether to think positively or to think negatively about what the outcome might be... I feel sad :( (I'm guessing that you can tell that my thoughts are predominately negative...) Best of luck to everyone!</p>
<p>haha i always assumed the decisions were gonna come out on the 14th cause i doubted it'd come out on the weekend. but now its just so much more definite...</p>
<p>when i first started counting down it was 57 days. now, 9.</p>
<p>next friday could be the best, or one of the worst days of my life haha.</p>
<p>the only thing i'm really happy about is that i refused to tell people where i was applying, that way, if i don't get in, everyone doesn't ask me about it.</p>
<p>urghh i totally should have done that.</p>
<p>except we only have 70 people in our grade, so its impossible to keep anything a secret.</p>
<p>oh ursel4some1likeu you are smart, i unintentionally told a terrible secret keeper. everybody knows. its sucks. </p>
<p>and i'm not getting in.
great.</p>
<p>I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster and my stomach is seeping out through my toes. </p>
<p>I told everyone. Whateva. Most people don't even know I'm decently intelligent. I am a woman of mysteryyyyyy</p>
<p>For some strange reason, I don't want to know. I'm not ready, haha. And my peer support group is having a sleepover that night and I'm a leader so I can't be in a ****y mood...</p>
<p>i'm just really afraid of people judging, because i'm supposed to be "smart". like four people know, and i lied and told everyone else who asked i applied RD to williams, which was my first choice.</p>
<p>ahhh i told a couple people too, who told a couple people, who told some more people....</p>
<p>basically everyone knows at my school. and everyone expects me to get in!! its gunna be kinda disappointing when i have to tell everyone "no..i wasn't accepted..."</p>
<p>but im secretly hoping for the best!!</p>
<p>As weird as it sounds, the waiting has seemed the worst on the weekends for me. I guess it's because more free time = more stressing. </p>
<p>I always hate counting down because things go so slowly, but I gave in with 51 days left. Big mistake: __ days left has become ingrained into my head.</p>
<p>MAN. I can sympathize completely with all of you.
Earlier today, I went back to the common app, looked it over, and realized how completely ridiculous I was in even applying to Yale- It just feels so unlikely! But at the same time I've grown unwisely emotionally attached.
I just want December 14th to come and end my torture!</p>
<p>I don't think I'd be able to handle going to school on the 14th. It'd just be too nerve-racking :/ </p>
<p>Heh, I think I'm just gonna sleep in next Friday. And wake up at 1:45 PM, and refresh the Yale page until decisions come out. Woohoo!</p>
<p>UGH. I 'wish I didn't have school the 14th! But alas, finals start that day- joy.</p>
<p>my best friend applied to columbia, i'm so relieved that yale isn't in the middle of the week. plus, it's really good that we're finding out on different days, it would be meltdown time if we found out together.</p>
<p>My dean pretends I didn't apply. Good sign, right? </p>
<p>NOT.</p>
<p>I don't know what I'm gonna do... I really don't. I've gotten my hopes waaayyy up and it's so silly! Ah well, some place will have me! I really don't want to tell people if I don't get in :'-(</p>