<p>@ AceAites:</p>
<p>There is a difference between failing and being a failure. Failing itself is not that bad, but when it is repeated over and over, then it means that a person is a failure because they failed to learn. Like me. </p>
<p>I never said that doctors don’t fail, nor do I downplay the pressures and physical toll of med school. Yes, med school might be grueling and at times I may be succumbed to a lot of humiliation. However, its the knowledge that its all temporary, for once I am in med school, I WILL be a doctor given that I pass everything. And once I am a doctor, all of the humiliation I was forced to undergo is not going to matter. Where I am now is aspiring to be a lab tech. Its not the same dude.</p>
<p>My plans to become a doctor are extremely postponed already. I don’t have time to keep delaying this. Im 21 and I’m not starting med school (if this all works out) till I’m 25 or 26.</p>
<p>@ IwannabeBrown:</p>
<p>Though people have said yes, the suggestion itself begs into question whether or not I can really get into med school. Graduating, getting a job, retaking classes and acing them, destroying the MCAT, getting a GPA up, while doing medically related activities, then apply to an SMP and PRAY to get in, go do well, then apply and PRAY to get into med school. That’s a lot of work which is why there’s this thing called UNDERGRAD where you can do all of these things, not after you enter the workforce. Me, failing to take use of undergrad am now officially screwed. How many people go through something like this and end up as doctors? Not much. </p>
<p>So people have said basically said yes, I can still be a doctor and I have a whole 1/1000000 chance of doing so by the method outlined already. Should I be thrilled about a 1/1000000 chance? Unlike Lloyd, I understand statistics.</p>
<p>But everyone is ultimately right. I need to change my attitude. I am not going to live the rest of my life thinking that I’m a failure and hating myself for messing up my life. No matter what job I ultimately have, I can’t keep thinking like this. It is poisonous, and it just makes me depressed. Forgiving myself and moving forward is so hard because I just hate the situation I am in right now - it is completely my fault. I don’t know how to look at this or at myself positively. In the meantime, I will try to do the best I can with the amount of school I have left, and pray for some research-related job that I can qualify with my excellent credentials after graduating so that I can live and not beg for money on the streets. I pray that in time, I find a way to make peace with myself so that I can start to fix all of this. I just hope its sooner than later.</p>
<p>To the 3000+ people reading this. Learn from me. Do not end up like me. If you do, then even I will pity you.</p>
<p>Thanks to everyone (esp AceAites) for the great advice. Much appreciated. I will try my best to follow it because I DO REALLY want to be a doctor. The only barrier I foresee are my parents (not having money is harder than you think), but i’ll try to reason with them (albeit unsuccessfully). Now time to go study for a final I’m screwed for tomorrow morning.</p>