Senior year - not feeling it?

Hi I’m about to start my senior year… There are various reasons why I’m a bit sad…

I’ve been pretty depressed these last couple of years - I don’t have a lot of friends and my best friend just moved. I mean, I do have friends but I just feel like I don’t belong many times and while everyone’s talking, I get left out. I do try my best - I’m involved in a lot of different activities such as Science Club, ASB, stuff like that. I just feel different, and left out.

I hide my depression pretty well - there have been times where I’ve been so down that I go to my bed as soon as school ends and sleep until 7 pm and then finish my homework. I have straight As and good scores and everything…

Now I just feel like I’m going into the year with absolutely nothing to look forward to. Got dumped by a guy who played me and just generally feeling hopeless with 4 more APs… My parents don’t help either… I’m experiencing a culture clash in my family and it’s been really hard for me in finding my own identity…

I don’t know what to do, should I seek professional help? My parents track my savings and I don’t want them to know.

Sorry. I feel like I’m in the same situation as yours, kinda.

When everyone’s talking, I feel left out because I have nothing to say or contribute to the conversations, and I’m just there. Like, if I leave, no one will notice and life will go on without me. Ugh…So no friends.

I don’t think that’s depression. I go to sleep immediately after school, wake up late and finish my HW as well…I mean…

Just find a hobby? you reaaally don’t need friends.

I don’t trust professional help that costs money- those are scams. There are free services. OR join a yoga club or any community club that’s not in high school. Or go to the park and look at those asian dancers- and join them and start dancing; or whatever’s the local thing you pass by often but never joined. Find something to do aside from academics if you’re that bored. If those don’t help, go talk to your guidance counselor or search up free professional help or free therapists. OR sit down and talk to your parents (I can’t believe this didn’t cross my mind until I almost clicked Post, but I don’t have a good relationship with my parents so I didn’t think of it- but you might.)

You can look forward to graduating and starting anew in college and…you need to devote a lot of time for education in pre-med and med-school so you might not have too much time for friends, so either try to get used to studying 24/7 without friends or get a different career. I know this because my cousin went to medical school and had to cut 100% of her contacts because she had no time to do anything but study, and only visited family during holidays for a couple days before departing back to college for studying.

Take care.
-another senior