I am currently a freshman at UCSB and although the school is great. I am having such a hard transition. I was thinking of taking a leave of absence and taking my general ED at a CC back home and then returning or moving to a four year after I do my GE. To start off, I am literally so broke so i dont even know if i can afford next quarter anyways. I was supposed to have my college paid off this year, but unfortunately the money that was saved for my college funds was given to another family member of mine (it was supposed to be a gift). I was also recently told I have anxiety and depression and knowing this doesnt help at all. I cry for multiple days on end and I have anxiety attacks for absolutely no reason almost everyday. This is causing me to not focus in my classes and I just feel so helpless and trapped. I had the numbers to get into this school but I was never prepared for this. My highschool had the most basic classes possible and i now see that the material I learned was not enough to prepare me for this college. Whenever I do ask for help, everyone looks at me like im stupid and always tell me how the material is so easy for them and I just cant help that my highschool did not have as many classes that these kids had. I am overwhelmed because I dont even have an idea of what i even want to do and i dont know if this cost is worth it. (the cost of my mental health and the money as well). IT ALSO DOESNT HAVE THAT my roommate situation is absolutely horrible. I live in a triple and even after having an RA meeting with them, I can not call my room my room. I honestly can not sleep in my room because it has gotten to that point where i am so uncomfortable. I do not have a healthy space and whenever I go into my room I feel judged and I cant help but cry when im alone. I have hated it since the second I got here and I dont know if I should just go to a CC near my house for the rest of the year and try to come back next year or just go from there and make a new plan. I do not want to drop put, I just want to be more comfortable and stable because I have not felt that this was my home since the first day i got here.
I believe this belongs in another forum such as College Admissions or something.
@xxitsgabbyxx I believe that the call is ultimately up to you. I wish you all the best and hope you can get things figured out!
Wow, I can relate to you in so many ways. I haven’t gone to college, but I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression when I was a freshman in high school. I am now a junior, and when I first transferred to a private boarding school from my public school, I hated it. It had been years since I had to make new friends, so I thought to myself: friends don’t matter in high school, without them I’ll have more time to study so I can get into a good college.
Well, that didn’t work out. I went home every weekend (30 min away) and cherished each second spent with my family. Even though I was half an hour away, when I got back to the school I felt like I was on the other side of the world. It sucked.
But please let me promise you: it gets better! I am doing great now, thriving in this amazing community and missing the school when I return home. 
UCSB is an amazing school, you have a great future ahead. But sometimes taking a break isn’t bad, like @GoBears2023 said, it’s ultimately up to you. Just remember:
“Wherever you go, you are there waiting for yourself.”
All the best! <3
You should go to counseling services and get some immediate help to deal with the anxiety. But let’s take some grade pressure off of you which should help.
(Ignore the sucky roommates, triples just DONT work)
All the UC’s have office hours and tutoring.
In order to do well in college classes you have to go to the tutors almost daily.
My daughter’s high school was tough, but even she was surprised at the speed and pace of the quarter system.
She was fortunate that she met some med students, who told her to go every night to the tutors, because “that’s what the “A” students do.” (Her elder sister had already told her to go to the tutors before she needed help.)
You have to know how to study effectively. The tutors will help you. You are allowed to go to different tutors for different sections. My daughter had favorite tutors who had different styles of teaching.
In college, you cannot study the way you did in high school; it won’t work.
Don’t be afraid to ask for help. There are a lot of students in your situation. You are not alone. Check back in to let us know that you are doing ok.
you need advice from a qualified counselor. At UCSB make an appointment with CAPS http://caps.sa.ucsb.edu/caps-home All services are confidential and I believe the initial appointment and short-term counseling are free to students (although you should ask)
Go to the counseling center for the mental health issues.
For the academic issues, use the campus tutoring center and your professor’s office hours. Don’t ask random classmates! They aren’t going to know how to help you figure out what it is you need to do. That is what the tutoring center is for.
As for the money: if it isn’t there, you aren’t going to be able to enroll for the next term anyway. Talk the money issues over with whoeverit is who said they would help you pay for college. Is the money going to be there for next term or not? If it isn’t, then you need to go home and go to a CC.