I’m an all honors junior I high school. I’ve been awarded student of the month, got on Superintendent’s List every quarter of my high school and I get straight A’s. I was out of school for a week to take care of a familial situation in Florida. I missed a quiz in AP US History and I needed to make it up before the end of the quarter. I was very stressed, even though it was just a quiz. I suffer from severe anxiety but I confide it in me. The night before I was supposed to take the quiz, I wrote down some of the vocab I couldn’t understand.
So I go into the class ready to take the quiz, and he sends me into another room that’s empty with another teacher. This teacher is one that I have never had or known before. I had sat on the paper in case I needed it. It was about 3/4 through the quiz and I’m realized that I do NOT need it. I didn’t touch it at all. (Background; I fractured my spine two summers ago and continue to have back problems, require me to twist around and stretch my beak once in a while.) So I go to stretch my back and I looked down and the paper to make sure it was still covered. At this point, this teacher got suspicious and confronted me. I told showed her the paper and she walked me to my actual teacher’s room (where he was in the middle of teaching.) I told him “I am going to have to accept the 0, I don’t want to disrupt your class, and I will come after school to discuss the matter further.”
I cried the rest of the day, returned back to his class for my regularly scheduled period to take a test with the rest of the class. I continued on in my day in shambles BC I realized what I have done was beyond wrong.
School ended and I went straight to his class, he was hosting a club so he brought me to a different teacher’s room to talk (and of course this was the teacher to give me student of the month). He asked me to explain myself and I said:
"I realized what I have done was beyond wrong and inexcusable. I was nervous for this quiz because I have been struggling in and outside of school. I explained how it was about 3/4 through the quiz and I’m realized that I did not need the paper and how I didn’t touch it at all. I continue by telling him about my back injury and how I went to stretch my back and I looked down and the paper to make sure it was still covered. I told him that it was at this point that the proctor caught me. I told him how I know that he is the head advisor of National honor Society (NHS), and any chance I had of getting in is down the drain. I told him that I knew how I violated the Student handbook and I am willing to take any consequences that I deserve.
He thanked me for my honesty and said that the quiz will of course be a zero. In regards to NHS, he said I can still apply but I should be ready to answer any questions about this during the interview. He said that it is my responsibility to tell my parents and he said he will contact head administration to go further into my consequences.
Here are my dilemmas.
- I don’t know how I can go about telling my parents, I know that I should be honest, but I am beyond scared
- I go to a small school where every teacher talks to another, and I’m scared that I will be blacklisted. What at my chances of other teachers finding out and them not writing college recommendations for me?
- What will my peers think of me, I don’t have a high social status but again I’m still nervous if they will find out.
- What are the chances that colleges will find out about this? I intend on applying to higher colleges.
- The hand book says I will get an oral warning and Disciplinary probation, a meeting with teacher student, parent and head administrator? What ae the likely hood that I will get a detention and that this incident will go on my permeant records.
Sorry for all the words, but I am a hot mess in need of help. Thanks in advance.