<p>I have already finished a year of college. I spent my first semester at my state university, UNLV - a fifteen minute drive from my house. With my Pell Grant going to school costs me around $3,000 a year and I'm eligible for scholarships now so that number could be even lower once I apply for them. </p>
<p>I spent my second semester at a small private Christian university in California. It costs about $35,000 a year to attend and I am given $13,500 in grants - the rest I have to take out in loans. Scholarships are not easy to apply for at this school, since it is not funded by the government so the chance of getting more free money is slim. </p>
<p>It was always my dream to go to a small, nice school out of state. I had a lot of fun at the Christian university. It was small, friendly, I made lots of friends right away, and it just felt like home from the moment I got there. I hated being away from my family though, so the only downside was the homesickness, oh and chapel 3 times a week (I was not into that).</p>
<p>I want to go to the Christian school, I really do, but right now I'm having the hardest time deciding if I should go back this fall. If I went back, I would be doing a "study abroad" program in Yosemite national park for the semester. I'd spend the entire semester learning and hiking in the woods. It seems like such a once in a lifetime opportunity so I am wondering why I'm having such a hard time wanting to go back. I'm a Christian and I like being around Christian people and not having the pressure to drink or party all the time. I liked being able to hang out and just do normal goofy things. </p>
<p>But on the other hand, I wouldn't be getting myself into tens of thousands of dollars worth of debt at UNLV. My sister is starting college there this Fall, so we could go together and I could still live at home, which sounds REALLY good to me. She's my best friend and I would love to go to school with her, I hated being so far away from my family. UNLV also has bigger research opportunities for me, which is important because I'm double majoring in Psychology and Biology - with grad school in the future. </p>
<p>I just don't want to regret staying home. I don't want to look back on my life and wish I had taken the opportunity to have amazing fun times at the Christian university with amazing friends and people. My personality is a coward by nature, which might be factoring into this. It takes a lot for me to get out of my comfort zone and do things that are unfamiliar, and a part of me is scared to death of the Yosemite semester, even though it would be life changing and great for me. I know that economically it's smarter to stay at UNLV, but should I not make money an issue here? Is there more to life than saving money and doing things the "smarter" way? Do you think in the long run that my experiences at the second university would be priceless and the debt that follows won't be impossible to deal with?</p>
<p>What do you think I should do? I know this was long, but I'm having an immensely difficult struggle with this right now. Any advice?</p>