<p>I transferred from a State University to an Ivy. I am very stressed with my classes and find myself having very high levels of anxiety that I have never experienced. It is my second semester, and my first semester I did fine. The thing that is weird, is that my grades are good. I am finishing assignments and keeping up. Yet I always feel stupid, slow, behind, I can't do this, I can't keep this up, I need a break etc. I don't know if this is me not being able to handle the 24 hour working schedule of an Ivy but this semester is much harder than my first.I used to work and eat right but that has been impossible this semester.The only extra time I have, I am so burnt out I just want to lay on my bed and stare into space. I find myself worrying about taking tests not because of the difficulty but rather the stress and anxiety that comes with them. I also am a year or two older for my college standing because I took time away from school to work. I have been an independent person since age 17 so my time at school includes working and dealing with finances(including loans and tuition) myself. When I say independent I mean independent. I don't have a home to go to over the summer, I am not on my dads health insurance, I pay for my cell phone etc.If you are wondering my father and I lost touch for a time and reconnected later. He now is a great guy with a modest job at a grocery store.Anyway, I have some friends to talk to and a father who cares but I often feel only with my dad can I be honest. It is hard to admit you are feeling overwhelmed in this environment. You always feel judged. I do have a busy schedule, but like I said I am keeping up and succeeding I just don't know if I can do this all semester and handle the anxiety of test taking. I often feel that I am out of place here. I feel like I am better off being top of my class at a "lower tier" school (by virtue of hard work) rather than being in the middle-top part of my class at an ivy and emotionally struggling. Am I just being a whiner? Am I getting good grades and working hard and just feeling envious towards an easier and more encouraging path? Rather, is it lazy of me to wish I had an easier life at a state school. Also, I am older and have many life experiences. I am able to look around and see the system I have become a part of much unlike other students. I constantly battle with why I am here? Just because I can do it does that mean I should?, Is the 2 years of stress worth the """"""""happiness""""""' it will help me achieve later?
Thanks for comments it means a lot.</p>
<p>Go seek counseling at your school. Be assured you’re far from the only person feeling this way and try to learn some methods to help ease your issues.</p>