@stressed911, you contradict yourself (it seems to me.) You say that “I know if I put in the work, I can do really well” but then you talk about struggling in all of your classes. You say that you need to think about the future and what your degree will do for you. Are you truly struggling academically; struggling because you are clinically depressed (and don’t realize it) ; or unmotivated to try hard because you don’t know what you want to do and therefore feel that working hard makes little sense to you?
You need to get to the bottom of this. If you think you may be depressed, get help immediately, because the situation will not resolve itself on it’s own. It’s hard to see anything in a positive light or find the will to work if that’s the case. You said you used to do well before college, so what has changed? Are you eating well, getting enough exercise, sleeping enough and doing the things that will keep you healthy?
If you are simply unmotivated to work on anything because you don’t see a direct relationship between the coursework and whatever you will be doing on the future, it is important to change your mindset and habits, and put one foot in front of the other. It’s almost impossible to enjoy anything or do well at anything when you don’t invest yourself in it . Fully enjoying something is not a prerequisite for working at it. Success can bring its own enjoyment, or at least satisfaction. What’s more, you will pretty much reap in the future whatever you sow. If you majored in environmental science with a 3.0+ average you would lay a path for a future…whether or not you liked it or ever worked a day in that field or went in a completely different direction. Graduating with a 1.5 will not prepare a path in the same way. I would say at this point, your particular major right now probably does not matter as much as getting your GPA up as much as possible and graduating, period. Life unfolds one step at a time. So do the best you can, one step at a time. Even people with strong goals and passions can’t see what the finish line will look like, exactly. It’s important to forge ahead in the faith that if you do the best you can with the choices you make…even if you don’t stick with those choices forever… the future will unfold in a more interesting way than if you sit back passively and let life happen to you.
If you feel I’m being critical , I’ll tell you I was a bit like you in college, and became a little paralyzed thinking there were a thousand different paths I could take. I had to learn the hard way that’s it’s best to focus well on the thing in front of you, regardless of what that is. Like building muscle strength, it gets easier with practice. Working at anything creates competence, and that brings a degree of confidence. Only then can you begin to discover what path is the right one for you. Sometimes the “right” path combines the skills you’ve built (whether they were ever a passion or not) with new-found interests that develop along the way. They develop by caring and immersing yourself in life.
Here’s an example: I had a friend when I was younger. She majored in biology, but questioned whether she wanted to be a field scientist (as she had originally thought.) Two years after graduating and working a nondescript job, she decided she really loved writing. Because she had good undergraduate grades she was able to get into a master’s program in science journalism. She built a freelance career in this, and did creative fiction on the side. She didn’t anticipate that path earlier.
Enough said…wishing you success…