<p>"^O no! You are turning into one of them! Aghh!
I’m just kidding haha, I freak out if I do poorly too. "</p>
<p>I can’t be turning into a CCer. I am in two regular class for my senior year! =)</p>
<p>Lol, that’s means you are in 4+ AP classes! Omgosh! You are one of them!</p>
<p>run with fear aaaah!</p>
<p>oh-uh I just realized that all of us are one of them we are on the CC forum. Retreat! retreat!</p>
<p>O no! lol .</p>
<p>I hate clinicals. I am on the health science track at my school and basically we have to go out to the local medical school and work with doctors and nurses on pediatrics. I have to go to a magnet school because my parents want me to, the school is good but I hate the clinicals we have to do. </p>
<p>I have 3 Bs and 3 As so far this year and I am upset at my grades…</p>
<p>^That actually sounds like fun, but I guess it depends on the person.
Umm…my rant for today is regarding the lack of food in my house. We never seem to have any so I starve the whole day until dinner. No, I can’t go to the store and buy food, I don’t have my license. Ugg…</p>
<p>Lmao nil .</p>
<p>What is so good about sliced bread? It’s just bread for gods sake!</p>
<p>but you can spread stuff on it with only one knife instead of cutting first.</p>
<p>im freakin out about everything mmmaaaaaaannnnnnn =? I’ll live though.</p>
<p>i have a c in apush, not because i dont know the material, but because my teacher is a ******r</p>
<p>^ also, CC bowdlerizes my precious rants.</p>
<p>Rant #2:</p>
<p>Don’t you guys get annoyed whenever you’re being nagged to go to bed early even though you still have huge amounts of homework left? Right now I live with my aunt and whenever I stay up past 10, which is fairly often considering I have a sport and 5 AP’s (since the last post, I talked to my AP Econ teacher and we were able to figure out a suitable study strategy), she always comes into my room and tells me how it’s “getting late” and I should be “getting to bed”. I KNOW that already… in fact, I’d love to have more time to sleep, but it’s hardly feasible with my current schedule! </p>
<p>I suppose this is also partly due to the fact that my cousins (her children) weren’t known to be academic superstars in high school, and she’s just not used to my CC-style way of living. But it annoys me anyway.</p>
<p>^YES! I have set limits for when I can go to bed and when I can get up.</p>
<p>Okay. </p>
<p>You know what makes me pretty mad? I hate it when people use big words and they either
a) don’t know what it means, and are just saying it so they sound smart
or
b) spell it wrong</p>
<p>ok my problems
- my bloody psychiatrist wants to put me on lithium. does she really think i’m that crazy? well she says i’m not bipolar but still…
i’ve found five papers saying it dulls your brain function…and when i told her my friends complained they couldn’t concentrate on lithium she was all like , shut up i’m the doctor and you do what you’re told or you get a second opinion
i guess i kind of deserved it for going off abilify without telling her. but i really hated abilify. it made me dumber and gave me this weird twitch in my eye.</p>
<p>2) parents are fighting because dad is convinced lithium will save my life and mom is dead against it</p>
<p>3) i’m in a crap university with crappy grad students who can’t even remember the quadratic formula , why am i in this godforsaken place when i deserve to be at a top 10 school on a scholarship</p>
<p>4) i’m never going to go back to my school because they kicked me out twice for being suicidal , and even if i could go back i wouldn’t survive because half the time i’m too crazy to actually work</p>
<p>5) i have to transfer but i’ve been on medical leave for two years and all the transfer essays are like , “what is your reason for transferring”</p>
<p>6) it’s so hard to make friends here because all my classmates are grad students in their 30s or people who can’t speak english</p>
<p>7) every time i tutor people in math i lose all faith in humanity</p>
<p>8) my last psych eval says i dropped 40 points in iq since 1999, probably from pulling all-nighters and trying to strangle myself</p>
<p>9) i am an abject failure , if my school didn’t believe in me why should i , i think i will never get better</p>
<p>^I feel so bad:( Did you by any chance go to Caltech? In any event, that’s stupid that they won’t let you go back in. They won’t let you just because you were on medical leave? Wow…
Can’t you go to another school? I mean, if you went to Caltech, you are definitely qualified to go to all of the other schools. I feel bad:/</p>
<p>I know it’s kind of personal, but is there a particular cause for your depression? I also sometimes suffer from depression but I don’t think it’s bad enough for medication. I know how you feel though, sometimes you just feel worthless. However, you have to realize that you DO matter and several people care about you:) (I know I probably just sounded like a psychiatrist lol, sorry, I was just trying to help:))</p>
<p>well how did you know,</p>
<p>oh and they had three suicides this term they can’t afford to have a fourth</p>
<p>You just sounded like someone who had previously been on CC haha, no worries, I’m not a stalker, I just spend WAY too much time on here lol</p>
<p>Wow, that’s unfortunate:/</p>
<p>yea i used to post here but apparently the deans stalk my internet history so i went and changed account names,</p>
<p>and i’m sorry to hear you’re depressed too , sorry if that sounds like a platitude but it really sucks when the nice people suffer the most</p>