<p>apple, what's >w<? i am not able to see an emoticon in that. i wonder if it is html gone, er, quirky. also, thanks for reminding me to find my other llama before friday. i'll need the moral support.</p>
<p>count me in, smr.</p>
<p>Apple: That's sweet. Thanks =)
Smr15 & dchari: same here D;</p>
<p>wow less than 4 days...</p>
<p>this is much too stressful and despite knowing everything should be ok, nothing makes it that way, no one try to help, its only gonna get worse until friday then after the depression everything should work out ok??maybe??</p>
<p>ahhhhh yale!
are results coming out 5pm est?</p>
<p>its not getting through this week i'm worried about though, since its pretty busy, its the weekend and next week after the rejection ugghh</p>
<p>at least if i'm deferred i know i still have a chance and then i can deal w/ my yale rejection at the same time i'm accepted other places, so it won't feel as bad.</p>
<p>and yes, i'm completely aware that this is horrendous, completely unhealty logic.</p>
<p>no, it's not horrendous logic; it's just logic that won't get you anywhere. "ok, so if i'm deferred, it will be good, or at least the best I can hope for." (believe me, I've gone through the same thought process.) but are you GONNA be deferred?? heck, who knows? so is this profitable thinking? not by any means. is it horrendous? i wouldn't say so... </p>
<p>that said, i had a minor nervous breakdown today. i've started losing things (including my mind), forgetting things, flouting work to daydream about Yale or go on CC..... this thing is consuming me. Friday needs to come fast. Before then, I'll have to deal with two tests, a problem set and a paper, but I hope they will pass quickly.</p>
<p>hahah oh im sure the nervous breakdown will reach me shortly. lately i've just been acting really strangely, like speaking completely incomprehensibly and laughing at random things, etc., and my friend think i'm literally going insane.</p>
<p>oh and the stress eating is getting out of hand. i had a GIANT ice cream sundae 2 hours ago. and i've been having twice as much coffee as usual (im a dunkins ADDICT) which btw im SO EXCITED that yale has the most dunkin donuts per capita in the country... assuming, of course, that i am accepted</p>
<p>...which i should never, ever do.</p>
<p>can i just add that lately my life has come to watching i love new york religiously??</p>
<p>HAHAH STRESS IS making me sooo crazy!!
i can suddenly type 10000 mph... and i just ate a gigantic coldstones bday cake remix... never done that before!</p>
<p>OH PLEASE FRI</p>
<p>You guys are crazy? I'm the ones that's crazy right now. I didn't apply early.</p>
<p>i had a two viente starbucks drinks. that's like... 50000 calories right there. yale is going to deny me for being a fatty.</p>
<p>french vanilla ice coffee w/ milk and sugar</p>
<p>that's my dunkins order every day (often several TIMES a day) year round. i'm the only one who orders an ice coffee when there's piles of snow on the ground :)</p>
<p>haha same!
im gonna get fat adn get rejected from yale!
lifes not fair</p>
<p>its also not fair that my consolation or congratulation friend just cancelled on me for friday night. not cool.</p>
<p>hahaha if we all get accepted jsut picture us 500 lbs rolling around campus</p>
<p>yeah, i definitely put on the freshman 15 this week alone, ha.</p>
<p>i want to hibernate to friday, this is unbearable. i cant wait if im deferred, that will be ALMOST as bad as a rejection because of the wait, but to god, (if ur listening an acceptance would be GREAT) this is pushing me to the edge, im not doing hw and i dont even care. im not the only one who cant really live until this decision is released!!!!!!!!?!?!?!?!/11?1//1!/1/1!/!/1/1/1!/ crazy</p>
<p>yeah im gonna gain like the freshman fifty.
yale will defer me, then ask for a picture and weight/height, etc.</p>
<p>and then they'll reject me cuz im fat and ugly...</p>
<p>The Stoplight Syndrome: </p>
<p>You're driving. You slow down to stop at a stoplight, and begin thinking, WHAT did I ever do to make myself think I could get into Yale?? It's a reach for ANYBODY, and, well, my [insert weak spot here] isn't even that good!! Plus early apps went up 36%! WHAT AM I THINKING?!</p>
<p>You get started again, and your mind goes blank until about fifteen seconds later, when you pull up to the next stoplight. And you think: Well, it's not that bad. I mean, there was that one guy on CC who said I stood a chance! And how much better can you really get? I mean, I know my GPA and test scores aren't perfect, but they don't just ACCEPT kids with 2400s - they've said it themselves; they have a holistic process! I have a shot at this! I really think it could happen! </p>
<p>Start driving again. By the time the next stoplight rolls around, you're thinking, aw man, here I am doing this to myself again. Giving myself false hopes when I KNOW it just ain't gonna happen. There are so many amazingly qualified kids out there--and what about leadership positions?? omfg i don't have very many leadership positions in my ECs!! that's it! call it a day, I'm outta here! </p>
<p>The light turns green, and you speed ahead, only to encounter a stopsign. (Thought I'd switch it up.) You're thinking, hey, everyone else from my school who is applying isn't that great, and someone generally gets in most years, so isn't it true that I've got a shot? If not me, then who? Well, there is that ridiculously smart guy in my Bio class........ </p>
<p>Repeat. Ad nauseum. Ad infinitum. Ex post facto habeas corpus. Carpe diem.</p>
<p>The Stoplight Syndrome.</p>