I have been questioning a lot of things for a long time now. I was born and raised in North-Western New Jersey and always dreamed about going out of state to college. Those dreams usually revolved around going to college in either Delaware, Maryland, Virginia, or the Carolinas. I’m an east coast girl at heart and it pains me to be in a landlocked state far from the ocean. I am currently in the summer before my sophomore year at Kent State University in Ohio. I do like my college greatly and think it’s super nice and have met a small group of some awesome people that I have grown to love and am forever thankful for. For about 6 months now though I’ve constantly battled with the idea of transferring. I am an undecided student and so looking into colleges was hard for me because I didn’t have a major to narrow it down. I let my mom kind of help me choose which colleges to apply to and didn’t actually apply to places that may have more seriously interested me and I deeply regret it. I want the chance to find the place I’ll feel like I will belong better. I also had a dream school in mind but due to money I settled for Kent and I constantly feel like I’m just resettling for it knowing its not where I want to be. I also hate the location and know I will want to move away which makes me hate the fact that I will build all my relationships there which will only make it harder to want to leave to a place where I would presumably have no one. I would figure out my major before transferring and I am aware that it may be harder to make friends and I know I will not be given as much money to attend. I believe things happen for a reason but I am struggling with whether I’m at Kent for a reason or if I am having these serious doubts often for a reason. All thoughts appreciated thank you so much. I know this post may seem scatter-brained but that’s how I feel all the time lately.
“I also hate the location and know I will want to move away which makes me hate the fact that I will build all my relationships there which will only make it harder to want to leave to a place where I would presumably have no one.”
Why do you think that everyone at Kent will stay in that area except for you? Why do you think that no one you know will end up living where you would prefer to be living?
“I also had a dream school in mind but due to money I settled for Kent and I constantly feel like I’m just resettling for it knowing its not where I want to be.”
This is your real problem. Did you end up at Kent because it was your only affordable option? In that case, you need to know now whether or not any of the places you might transfer to would be affordable for you.