I realize that this situation comes up a lot, but I’m hoping for advice on my situation. I had been set on a gap year for a while, but decided last year to apply to some reach schools in the US that I felt would change my mind. Yes, this is already a mistake and I understand. The process did in fact change my mind and I became rather enthusiastic about college. I wasn’t accepted to my choices- I was waitlisted at Chicago but not accepted- and honestly wasn’t prepared for a backup, thinking I didn’t want to go.
I first considered transfer, in order to prove myself better than I did (another mistake). I do however realize transfer to most top universities is nearly impossible, especially international. (financial aid is also a concern, really limiting my choices) I live in Canada, and currently have my Ontario choices, but none of these excite me and I don’t know how happy I would be even for a year. Additionally, one of my top career choices seems to require a US education. I don’t mean to limit myself to this choice, but also do not want to eliminate it.
I’m currently looking into universities to apply rolling admissions, but don’t feel excited about these either. I would also be looking to transfer.
My gap year plan came back recently when I realized I don’t have many options. I would be moving to LA to focus on acting (not necessarily Hollywood level, just a convenient destination; no illusions), as well as a job/internship, an abroad program which I’m looking into in my intended field, and non degree courses.
I would be reapplying to colleges in the fall, with a hopefully more achievable list, with better backups, as well as 2 repeats. Also notable, I’m eligible as a US citizen making next year more accessible. My main problems with the gap year are that I was genuinely excited about going to college (but simply don’t have a suitable option), and the perceptions both of universities and others. I realize I shouldn’t let others affect me but it’s a real problem for me. It gave me the same doubt about my original plan and it’s why I never told anyone where I was applying.
This is likely a mess, but any thoughts on my choices would help. I’m tired of being upset about my mistakes as I can’t change what I did/didn’t do.