I feel like my life is falling apart. The deadline was yesterday so it isn’t something that’s easy to fix.
A few days ago I used my mom’s checking account to pay for the prepayment for housing–yes, I got permission. I have my own debiting account but for whatever reason the payment necessitated using an echeck and I don’t have a checking account. At that time I got a confirmation email of the payment and so I thought everything was fine…up until today. I got a email saying that the prepayment has been rejected and the housing portal on UC. It hit me like a train.
My mom was so stressed out over the payment as well–she thought something would go wrong and I had reassured her that everything was fine…that everything will go though fine. I’m so scared to tell her the truth because she has a weak heart. For now I’ll just keep it a secret from her but she’ll know soon enough that the payment didn’t go through (despite there being enough money in that account).
It just feels like these past few years in community college have been for naught…wasted time, with only a few meager skills learned. Can someone please tell me what to do? I’ve shot off a few emails to UCSD, but I somehow doubt there’s any was to fix it that way…is there another route I should take? I need to do something as soon as possible…
I almost feel like I should sign up for the military and just do something with myself even though my type of personality doesn’t mesh well with that sort of life…I’m just so lost. I just need some ideas. Something to do. Somewhere to go, because there’s no way I’m staying at home for another few months.
Above all I need something to tell my mom as soon as possible. The more solid my plans sound, the more okay she’ll feel. She should still be annoyed then (I’ve spent around 60$ just getting all my transcripts to the school) but some of the disappointment should be lifted.