<p>I got that disability one. Broadly, this is what I said, without other minor questions being answered too.</p>
<p>In my application, I made it aware that during my first two years in high school, I was dealing with depression. The severity of my depression was at an all time high, as I was considering taking my own life. When in this state of depression, it was hard to have any will to try and do anything positive in my life, as everything that I did try, seemed to always fail. Which in turn led me deeper in the pit of depression I was in. Depression forces a person, in my experience, to not feel for themselves. That was the worst, for I didn’t even care about myself, I was an empty body without a soul. I didn’t care what happened to me, I was completely empty inside and I credit my care for other as to what got myself out of my terrible period of depression. Helping other people and seeing the joy and happiness I can bring to them helped me bring joy and happiness to myself. My depression still acts up, I still get really down over little things that other people may view as silly or petty, although I never let it get that bad, because I just turn to my passions to help me cope now, writing and helping people. In addition to my depression, another mental disability that I have, but did not include in my application is my Tourette Syndrome. I have had to deal with my onslaught of tics since I was as little as I can really remember, second grade. The physical tics have changed throughout the years, from persistent head nodding to having to walk on every line or crack on the sidewalk to making a low humming noise to a particular beat in my head. They have always been prevalent in my life but tend to really take control over me when I am in a state of extreme emotion, whether the emotion is good or bad. When I was younger, the tics were very obvious as I never learned how to control them, as much as they can be “controlled”, but as I have grown older I have learned to hide by not suppressing them, but changing them. If you try and suppress tics, they will build up in your brain and it will impossible to resist and you will just become more frustrated, but if you alter the tics in such a way that they may seem like more normal actions, like attempting to crack your neck by leaning your head to both shoulders, I am able to live a fairly normal life with them without many people realizing my disability. That only works for motor tics though, as vocal tics are almost impossible to hide and you just have to deal with them. The tics do make it hard for me to concentrate on any one thing for an extended period of time as too much time on my hands delegated to one task, especially ones that I am not physically active, always the tics to flourish. To compensate for this, I always try to find ways to be busy and productive in an active way, whether that theatre,sports, work or other miscellaneous things.</p>