Hey thanks for the feedback! I’m gonna assume you didn’t read everything I said, and I don’t blame you, there’s a lot of things now lol. By the things you said, I can see that you misunderstood a lot of what I said, but there’s still a lot of truth and wisdom coming from you regardless, and I’m gonna take this valuable wisdom into my considerations.
First of all, I’m not an immigrant nor a refugee, I left just before the peak of the war began, so I haven’t really felt the pain, plus I’m generally emotionally detached so these things won’t affect me much anyways. I kinda exaggerated by an “impressive” job, I just meant something a little unorthodox, which an interpreter/translator is.
I do not want a prestigious program for my bachelor’s. I’ve said this before, but all bachelor degrees are equally impressive for me. It’s the connections you make and things you do outside the university curriculum that really build your strength up (according to my intuition at least). The place where I’m gonna be studying is what really matters to me; lifestyle options, costs, culture, weather, opportunities, etc. My dad had this discussion with me too: he told me I can go to the worst university in Syria for my bachelor’s if I want, and then get a Master’s, doctorate or a PhD at MIT for example, and that will be what everyone will look at when they hire me or analyze my background.
With how I’m setting up my plan, I won’t need to rack up money if I go to Germany or France or somewhere in Europe, but I do want to start some sort of work asap; there’s nothing to lose after all, only gain. I think I have enough options right now too, any more and I’ll just be spending too much time planning and researching without getting anything done.
Hmmm… Creating a nuclear fission in my bathtub? I like the sound of that. But seriously, after I smoothed out some kinks in my thinking, I realized it’s not important to do something huge to try and get a huge scholarship based off that; after all, I still don’t have enough information, no guarantees, and no backup plans if I dedicate myself towards it. It’s still something I should look out for so I don’t miss it, but it shouldn’t take away my focus from moving forward. My priority is getting out of the country and beginning uni asap, where I can get all the information I want, make all the connections I need, and there I will be able to create a nuclear fission reactor in my bathtub .
I’ll be honest, I’m mentally spoiled. Everything’s been too easy for me so far, except the clear impossibles which I often discarded. I don’t yet understand the worth of work (like, a job), the value of money (I do, but only through intuition, and through experience on a tiny scale), nor the importance of hard work (work ethic and discipline). I do know for a fact I’m much, much more capable than others, but I know that I sucked at getting things done, and the fact that I’m still inferior to many others in a lot of areas. I’m just raw talent right now, and I believe I need refining through discipline and really hard failures, and the presence of a strong community.
But don’t let that take away from the fact that I was heavily affected by circumstances, analogize that to obese people in poor families. But at least I’m self aware of this now, and I’m actively working on correcting it.
Much, much thanks for your bluntness. Hearing sharp, blunt feedback really humbles me and kinda makes me scared, like someone attempting to cage a bird, but makes me come clean and spit out all my wrong thinking and think more realistically, yet still creatively.