<p>Hello,</p>
<p>I thank you for those that have the time to read this post. I have a major problem- where do I apply with my stats? To be clear, I had several problems throughout high school- parent died freshman year, had to deal with lawyers and estate. A very complicated situation that I do not want to tackle right now. I go to an extremley competitve high school in Texas (suburb of Houston) in which the top 250 people in my class made all A's and B's throughout their four years. For me however, I had various problems which I just mentioned and as someone who people think is in the top 20%, I'm not.</p>
<p>Looking back I regret not telling my teachers about my situation; I am a very private person. When we recieved our ranks junior year I didn't realize how badly I ranked. It was rather embrassing and I promised that I would not tell anyone. When people asked about my rank, I didn't tell them the real rank (in the first place they had no idea about my situation and really it was none of their business) instead I just told them i was in the top 35%. I wasn't and still am not- I'm about 399 out of 570. As someone who takes school seriously, my father's death occured at the wrong time just as I was adjusting in high school and it got worse when my mother had to hire three different lawyers to help protect my estate from the lady my dad re-married before he died.</p>
<p>My question is- as someone who is seen by most teachers as very intelligent (I have taken about 1-2 honors/AP classes each year in high school) and has been nominated for various leadership awards in school by teachers, teachers who have since last year asked for me to give them first the college teacher recommendations forms, some of the various admission committes are going to see two different students- a very committed person in band who is a leader in the band, is very involved in Habitat for Humanity and our school's local fundraiser for it- Build-a-thon, and who is an active member of Philopsophy Club verus a student who made very, very average if not lower than average grades in high school. I know I am not as acoomplished as the people on this board when it comes to outside activities, but I do particiapte when I can. (It's a bit hard when our band comes in finals at state contest in 2004 meaning we have practice every single day for 3 months including summer months).</p>
<p>My question- where do I go to school? I know my reaches; I know the places I want to go to. I don't have really safties though. I'm hoping for the admissions committees not to play the number game on me and look at me as a whole. I want to do something with international relations/politics/government which later will turn into law (graduate years).
To be honest, I really don't want to stay in Texas, I would love to be in the Northeast, when I visit up there I always feel at home. Here are my big, big reaches-
Boston Univ
Northeastern Univ
George Washington Univ (I know, I know)
American Univ (I have stayed at this campus before at a camp)
Clark Univ
Bard College
University of Texas- Austin (applying to whole UT system)
Trinity Univ
University of Houston (my only saftey?)</p>
<p>Am I lost cause or what? I know this is a big list and very ambitious, but I wish it wasn't about the numbers. I am so worried at this moment, worried of getting rejected everywhere because I had something happen at the wrong time in mylife, perhaps the most important time. What do I do? Where do I go? Please help! My conselor (the fourth one in four years; the other ones quit or were fired) really isn't helpful and I believe it's her first year as a conselor.</p>
<p>I really appreciate you speding the time and reading this. I know my list of colleges is way out of reach, I just want a new life where I can start over and from scratch and not let what happend in my family life to haunt me forever.</p>
<p>Thank you.</p>