<p>One year ago, I wasn't thinking about college apps at all. Nor was I thinking of them this past spring. I thought that come November I'd apply to a couple of UCs, get in, and then figure out where to go. MIT had always been a place of some fascination for me, but I thought that MIT was a place for extremely smart people, and even I, who admits that one of his faults is arrogance, didn't think that I belonged there. And then this August, during a family vacation, I visited MIT and fell in love. What struck me about MIT was the amount of creativity, enthusiasm, and for lack or a better word, weirdness, that I felt emanating from the atmosphere. Truly, it is a magical place.</p>
<p>Returning home, I became immersed in the past MIT blogs, spending hours at a time reading them. I was extremely excited to have found the exactly where I wanted to go, for it felt unlike anything I had ever felt at any other university. MIT just has a quality that is difficult to articulate, and the best I can do is to say it's like cocktail, fusing knowledge, passion, fun, quirkiness, and a bit of craziness to create an amazing place that embodies each of its ingredients. </p>
<p>Yet, although I had found where I wanted to go, getting there was another thing--that 8.9% admissions rate is quite daunting. And so I spent hours slaving over the finest details on my application, lest I make some careless spelling error that would invalidate the rest of the document (it wouldn't), eons staring blankly at the essay prompts, a few heated minutes arguing with my mother about the use of the word "troll" in one of my essays (Guess who won? Not me.), and those few crushing seconds suddenly doubting every single word that I'd typed the moment before I clicked "Submit." All in all, I spent a month laboring over that digital file before paying tribute to the college admissions gods and finalizing my little baby. And then waiting.</p>
<p>Waiting is agonizing . Waiting isnt just remembering every now and then and thinking Gee, I wonder how its going? Waiting is when youre doing activities, running, playing tennis, taking a test, watching television, talking with family and friends, and you remember. You remember and you worry. Your mind feeds you delusions of getting in, but then your more cynical side cuts them down with its ice-cold blade of reality. In all likelihood, you tell yourself, you wont be getting in. Ive found myself increasingly stressed-out about my MIT decision and combined with a couple of 2nd-World Problems (definitely worse than 1st-world problems, but nowhere near 3rd-world), this past month-and-a-half has been mentally taxing. </p>
<p>Yet they have also been quite amazing. Just the occasional realization that I have a chance to go to MIT causes me to step back and say "WOW!" I am glad that I applied and I hope everyone else feels the same way. Thus, with EA decisions due out tomorrow morning, there are a couple of things that Id like to say (as much to myself as to others). </p>
<p>[ul][li] ** We all have bright futures.** MITs applicant pool is, as we know, incredibly self-selecting and just the fact that we applied says a lot about us as people. Whether we get into MIT or not, well have opportunities to succeed elsewhere.[/li][li]Its been a great ride. For me, and Im sure others, MIT has become something towards which we have striven. Ive a had a great time reading the blogs, tracking the MIT news, and watching MIT Gangnam Style so many times that my parents asked me to please, just please stop. And despite the stress that theyve caused, those dreams of matriculating have been worth something.[/li][li]Breath. Oxygen deprivation cant and wont affect the situation, so you might as well inhale (you were turning blue).[/li][li]Que Sera, Sera Whatever will happen, will happen. Some people will be straight up accepted and enter into a giddy celebration. Others will despair at the R-word. And a great many will have to endure another couple months of nail-biting. Yet when it comes down to it (and this is the part I have trouble convincing my subconcscious of), it is out of our hands. We have already plumbed the deepest recesses of our minds for essay topics. We have already gotten the test scores and the grades. We have already done everything in our power to increase our chances, if only by a fraction of a percent. So, let it happen.[/li][li]Lets be good sports. Hearing the stories of everyone and all of their statistics, it does seem unfair how so few spots are available for so many talented, smart, hard-working people. And so if I do get rejected, or get deferred and later rejected, I hope that Ill be able to feel genuinely happy for those who did get to fulfill their dreams. I hope that Ill be able to move on and get ready for Graduate admissions (cause Ill get there one way or another).[/ul]</p>[/li]
<p>And so, when we log into decisions.mit.edu tomorrow morning, let's try to take it with a smile.</p>
<p>tl;dr: Applying has been a both fun and tiring experience. Let's try to accept the results as well as we can.</p>