<p>I have a bunch of tests next Tuesday…</p>
<p>Also, my friend is angry and might’ve taken her anger out on me, and I tried to make it better, but at first I got angry too because I had no clue what was going on.</p>
<p>uh there r a lot…mostly school stuff…physics, precalc, ap english, and all the ap tests…i will retake the SATs mostly likely so that counts too</p>
<p>getting replies from colleges, senioritis</p>
<p>aldol condensations</p>
<p>girls</p>
<p>college aint got nothing on them folk..</p>
<p>the ideas from zeitgeist the movie have been around for a while and were advertised a lot with the 9/11 protest thing (i think), but most people just see these things as paranoid</p>
<p>i watched the movie and found it really interesting…i have no idea what to believe =</p>
<p>I’m stressed about some test tomorrow, and lots and lots of homework.</p>
<p>I can’t get my mind off of this one boy that I’ve known for a really long time but just last year I started having feelings for him. And he does things that make me think that he likes me too. The thing is, I just don’t want to tell him right out that I like him, but then again I don’t want to keep waiting until it’s too late.</p>
<p>eh finding a date for prom which is on 3/29. Its either this week or next year…</p>
<p>best friend was my stress, but now our drama has started to cool … and everything’s much better (= </p>
<p>so basically, nothing really at the moment.</p>
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Ditto that, altectech. I’m also suffering severely from this. My grades plummeted pretty bad during a 2-week period concerning this matter (from a 99% average –> 93% …).</p>
<p>Well, let’s see. Waiting to hear from colleges, my family is adopting a little boy and it’s taking FOREVER to get him here with us (it’s horrible waiting, knowing he’s not home yet), my boyfriend is stressing about over whether or not our relationship will last through the strain of me leaving for school, my best friend is being passive-aggressive and i never know if she’s in the mood to talk to me, i’m in two plays at once and directing one as well, my grades suck and i can’t bring myself to care enough, i just want to be finished with high school, i can’t afford anything and i need a new job, i don’t have a car, i need to take my driver’s test soon, my cat is probably going to die in the next few weeks, my room is a mess, i can’t decide if i’m an atheist or not, i’m worried about being able to afford to go to school, i missed a scholarship deadline, i need to start working out and eating right, and i have rehearsal this thursday so that means I’M GOING TO MISS LOST!!!</p>
<p>(deep breath)</p>
<p>just a teenager, that’s all.</p>
<p>Freedom. Isolation. Mortality.
Terrifying.</p>
<p>An odd thought I had makes me think I might be crazy, or at most positive have a very thoughtful mind. I’ll try and find out tomorrow.</p>
<p>well, one thing that’s been on my mind is whether or not i should compromise my values and do what i want. i believe in karma, but oftentimes, it seems like such a hindrance. </p>
<p>college acceptances - not really stressful in a bad way, but it’s something that i am really anticipating.</p>
<p>also, i honestly do not know what kind of person i am. the only trait i know about myself is that i work well under pressure and i’m independent most of the time. but sometimes, i think that i’m not assertive enough in my ideas, and i am sometimes lose opportunities and am forced to follow. ahhh… i wonder how i’ll cope if i get to college.</p>
<p>what’s ironic, too, is that i’ve never been more depressed than i have been this year. it doesn’t affect me much in terms of what i need to get done, but sometimes, when i’m alone, i think about how crappy my life is. and before anyone gets self-righteous, my life has been pretty rough. oh well, hopefully i can start over soon.</p>
<p>and lastly, i’ve gotten rusty at guitar and basketball… ahhh</p>
<p>Something that bugs me is how pathetic some of my classes are in comparison with other students in my grade. Why the crap did I take general Physics, a class that isn’t needed for AP Physics and is mostly populated by seniors who just take the class just for the hell of it, not to mention seniors who mostly don’t communicate with me? Especially since I could’ve taken a more stimulating class, like APUSH (I could’ve had the advantage with a previous year of US History!), or, well… AP Physics. I just think my schedule pales in comparison to the other juniors’ schedules. It doesn’t help that I’m only in the second year of a foreign language while others are in the third or fourth year. It may sound… well… pathetic, but what if colleges look down on my course selections (like at Physics), seeing that I’ve backed down from challenges in order to get an easy A?</p>
<p>Meanwhile, I can’t help but notice that I’m kind of being ignored. I’m a new student this year (which I believe is a factor to some wrong choices in my junior class selections), and although I seemed to have made friends more quickly than in previous experiences of transferring schools, I kind of think that most of those friendships are just… well… illusions… I feel excluded… Kind of contributes to my bad mood lately… which, according to my dad, is being lashed out on my parents… :(</p>
<p>Homework. Just returned from 3 week exchange in France. Have three chapters to finish for AP Chem, and I am SO screwed. Such a hard class. I have barely a B- average and it’s destroying my GPA.</p>
<p>Plus, I just learned to type on crazy french keyboards so this is difficult toi do at the moment. :)</p>
<p>Electives. I don’t know what to take, and I need one more. They took out Driver’s Ed, which makes things hard.</p>
<p>Well. Yesterday I found out that a friend of mine had betrayed me. She knew that I have liked this boy for a really long time, and all of a sudden she goes and asks him out. What a FRIEND.</p>
<p>My number one problem is STRESS/ANXIETY! I’m going to take up yoga now, it’s really getting to a point where it’s just ridiculous.</p>