Why am I like this

I have multiple threads about why I feel like I should not go to Cal Poly SLO. I wish I was so quick to SIR to SLO, but it was the only school that made me excited to attend at the time. I SIR’d but circumstances have made me want to stay a bit closer to home, and I regret not accepting admission to UCSC because my parents do not want me to go to a community college no matter what. Do you think that if I contact UCSC and explain my situation, they would see if my spot would be available if someone opted out? I know it’s like a 0.1% chance, but I am so confused with life right now especially after my rejection from the UCD waitlist. I know that Cal Poly is a great school, but after visiting I just don’t feel like I belong there anymore and I need to stay closer to home to take care of my mental health. Community college is not an option for me because of my parents. I have no idea what to do, and this whole college process is making me question every decision I ever made pls help lol im cry

You should contact their admissions office if that is what you truly want, but make sure that you make this decision thoughtfully and carefully because it makes little sense going back and forth.

It is worth a try to contact UCSC admissions, but I think it might be a better idea to take a Gap Year, work on your mental health issues and reapply as a Freshman next year. If you are having mental health issues now, it might not the best situation to start at any college until you have these issue resolved. Additional stress may not be very beneficial to your health at this point.