<p>Well, I am a freshman in Aerospace engineering. I have a few midterms today and some next week.<br>
For some reason, I feel as if nothing matters. I don't know whether I am depressed, whether i'm in the wrong major, or if I'm second guessing my identity. What i'm trying to say is sort of far-out since I can't really put it into words, but basically I'm just not motivated to study and it seems as if I have almost lost interest in the things that mean most to me. </p>
<p>This could partially be because I feel like I definitely failed my chemistry test last night, and now i'm about to take a Calculus test at 8pm which I haven't studied for yet and don't feel the need to study. But the problem is that I have probably a D in that class and my teacher in calculus is sooo bad it makes me not want to do anything at all. It is repulsive. Now i have this test in a few hours which I will probably fail also...I can't get an F....especially my freshman year in basic calculus...</p>
<p>I feel as if there is no meaning to anything, i've felt this way before I usually just get over it and start having fun doing what I like again, but this time feels different. I don't know how to solve it.
I'm not the type of person that will really go to counseling, i've never done it and never want to. So i don't want any posts saying "go to a counselor". </p>
<p>I experienced a similar thing when I was in college. I got through it with the help of my friends, but after pulling it together and graduating, I did suffer a major depression. I wasn’t someone to do counseling either but I am posting now to say don’t rule it out. I wish I had sought counseling when I had my first bout of what I now know was serious depression. I’m not saying you have depression–but it sort of sounds like that.</p>
<p>I felt like it should be something I could shake myself out of. That first time, it lifted on its own, and I was able to move forward. The second time, I just couldn’t make it go away, much as I wished I could. Counseling helped me.</p>
<p>But, the way you’re feeling could be caused by many other things. Maybe not depression at all. You could have anemia, mono, etc…those will cause you to feel tired and unmotivated too.</p>
<p>So I would recommend going for a check up as soon as possible. </p>
<p>Other things in general, try exercising regularly, and eat good food, not a bunch of junk. Yoga and meditation might help, too. Drinking will make you feel worse.
Hang in there, I hope you feel better soon.</p>
<p>I think what you’re temporarily feeling is due to the abrupt overload of exams, with the fact that you failed your chemistry exam. Pull yourself together, and set a goal. </p>
<p>^Wow, you are so enlightening. I just had my mind blown by your well-reasoned analysis of my very serious and, in retrospect, very misinformed post.</p>
<p>Even if you feel like nothing even matters, that your skies could fall, that your boss should call, and that any way the wind blows, your world still seems so very small – if nothing really matters… if nothing really matters to you, you should still
carry on, carry on.</p>
<p>scubasteve…Please go to your medical center on campus. It is possible that you are having an episode of depression. It seems that many young people your age have their first episode during their college years. This can be taken care of with the right medication and some counceling that your school will provide. There is no need for you to feel like this so please go today and see someone. If you really feel unprepared for this exam thean maybe you can email your prof and ask for an extention by letting him know you are not feeling well. I don’t know what the policy is on your campus but you can look into it online. Take good care of yourself.</p>
<p>thanks Dnation and XX55XX and everyone else that replied.</p>
<p>I got through it. I was talking to some people about it who I assume were in the same situation as me.<br>
I basically just realized that I HAVE to study at least a week in advance for all my tests. Cramming doesn’t really work all to well in college. As in college you actually have to learn the material to do good on the tests.</p>
<p>I found out my results from my chem exam, and apparently, the average score was 65 percent. Our chem professor says this happens almost every 2nd exam in our class since the first test is mostly review. I ended up getting 72 which is above the average. </p>
<p>Dnation and XX55XX were right.<br>
I was challenged and basically I just needed to grow some hair on my chest. I did really just need to suck it up and deal with it.
I took the Calc test and somehow I feel like I did well…probably because I perform better under pressure…and I was definitely feeling it. I crammed a few hours before and it worked…but i’m not doing it again cause it sucks.</p>
<p>I am happy to hear things went well. Try to stay on top of things so that horrible feeling does not hit you the way you described it above. College is an adjustment so this may just be a learning period for you.</p>