I don’t really hear that it’s time management that’s so poor. In your earliest posts you list tons of things that you are trying to manage your time. You seem to have a pretty good handle on what you need to do and when. You have accomplished a lot getting yourself to this point in college with the challenges of anxiety and depression which hopefully you know can sap concentration and motivation.
Perhaps your feelings about not liking college and what being in college means workwise may be at the crux of the problem. At the end of sophomore year and beginning of junior year the end of coursework and the seemingly endless tasks to be done, exams and all the stress to go with it seems a long way off. You might even resent that to have to do all this work which might make you resistant. When you go to your next counseling session it might be worth exploring these types of feelings, accepting them, and maybe doing some reframing of your thinking in order to reduce feelings that may be barriers to your motivation and concentration. Then perhaps you can find the positives that are going to keep you focusing and getting you to the end. Seriously, you have 3.75 semesters to go, a blink in the course of a lifetime. You can do this!
@Northernwoods I definitely think you hit the crux of my problem. I really do just want out of college since it’s been so unpleasant for me 95 percent of the time. I’ve made little to no new friends (despite moving in early as a freshman and joining clubs) and I’m iffy on my major but don’t have the time to change it because it will likely jeopardize my graduation time and my scholarship. It’s a Big 10 school I’m at, and I just don’t fit in with the people here either.
But yeah, I go through stages where I’m tolerating everything and then hating everything, and it just gets exhausting mentally. I think my therapists thinks I’m progressing and getting more comfortable being here, and I just wanna kick myself because I don’t understand how I can’t communicate my own thoughts clearly to them.
So, yes, I’m counting down the semesters until I graduate and trying to just get by. But at the same time, I don’t feel prepared at all for the workforce and feel like I’ve learned nothing at this school, so I dread graduation.
Oh, sorry, I meant @NorthernMom61
Well perhaps identifying the crux of the problem is a good start. In or out of therapy you can work on reframing your thinking. College isn’t all or nothing. Even if you don’t like it and have felt miserable, there are probably some positives you can identify. Finding those can help.
It also sounds like you feel that you should be completely prepared for a career and and life once you graduate. Perhaps that’s why the work you do now feels disconnected from the end point. Well again, it’s not all or nothing like that, and your life and career will continue to unfold after college. So try to focus on today and what you need to get done in the immediate future, the next few weeks.
Things will unfold, stay open to opportunities and let things unfold.