<p>Hey,</p>
<p>I'm writing an admission essay about an experience that helped me realize what is important to me and why it's important. And I'm completely lost on what topic I should choose. </p>
<p>It's been two a half years since I graduated high school. Last year I performed horribly academically at college due to outside circumstances. This year I went to a Community college and I'm performing remarkably better, I'm much more dedicated than I was a year ago. I was going to write an essay about how I was scared of college in high school but realized how important school is; to help clarify my poor performance and emphasize how I'm dedicated to performing well at a university. I wrote a first draft of the essay, and it came out horribly. I tried to redo it but every time I sit down I get writers block and the words never come out right.</p>
<p>So instead I wrote an essay about a family member's death and how it made me realize how important my family is to me. I gave examples of how I used to take them for granted and how I've changed since then. The essay came out so much easier than the first one. But it seems like it highlights how great my deceased family member was and it makes me look bad for taking him for granted. I'm also worried that the other essay would be better because it'd show how dedicated I am to school, I'm not sure how this one will make me look. What's the benefit to the university if I'm dedicated to family more than school? I wanted to submit the first essay just because it goes over the circumstances of poor performance, but there is a section on the application where I can explain if I didn't get a chance to in my essay so I could submit either one and still be free to go into detail about my circumstances.</p>
<p>which one do you guys think I should submit? The family one is much more genuine and I put a lot of emotion in it, but I'm not sure if it will accomplish as much as the one about school.</p>