<p>and trying to get good grades, trying to be perfect, to get into a good college, to repeat the same process again... in a more extreme manner, apparently. </p>
<p>I feel so disillusioned. </p>
<p>I'm telling myself that I'll have fun ones apps are over but I'm not even sure I know how to do that anymore.</p>
<p>Maybe it's senioritis, but I can't bring myself to do anything these days when I have so much things to do. Then I have these anxious moments because none of my essays are finished and my portfolio's not even half done and I'm applying to reach schools and still I'm here on CC wasting time lol. </p>
<p>shaiiiit, man.</p>